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Not What I expected of Me…
You never know how truly angry you are, until you are pushed past the point of no return… When I learned my mother had been in hospice and not one of my 5 siblings informed me… I knew… Don (dad’s) words came to past… He was 100% accurate about the children he abused… but he…
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At A Cross Road…
Enjoying the morning, even though it is already hot and I told Homer, I am at a cross road on writing… What needed to be resolved with my past… Happened because of the estate drama and the court clerk at Mena, court house… Between her screaming at me and the family showing me the kind…
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Dying Twice Was Never Enough…
Getting to live through dying, not once, but twice, before I made it to 14 years old, alwyas makes me ask this question??? What have I got left to fear??? Death is our ultimate game ender and if you aren’t lucky enough to have someone there to bring you back, that death may be final……
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Lost memory …
Playing with the puppies and a kid hand slapping game from Japan just before the stroke at 14… How I remember this but not my childhood is why my amnesia is so damn frustrating… I apologize for my voice, you were warned… Maybe tonight will be a night of dreams…. I remember Copyright protected 2026…
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Respect & Approval?? Do You Require it???
When Don lay dying, my Uncle came out and told me how much Don respected me… Trying not to loose my temper, I gave my Uncle a hug and said nothing… I tried being respectful, not taking advantage, not using, not taking what wasn’t mine… None of the others did that, but hey, christians have…
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Oh NO, You Aren’t!!!
We moved to that little town in 03…. and one of the things I remember about living in that household up till 18… Hearing these words… “Oh No You Aren’t”… Any of us, including me in my 50’s wanted to do anything against what Freda wanted, she either issued that statement or you got the…
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The Fracture No One Knew…
I started seeing doctors when I got pregnant with my first kid at 19, by the time I delivered, I found out I had a host of issues and no memory of any injuries and of course I asked Freda and of course, she lied, putting my life at risk with my pregnancy that should…
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The Art of Deception…
Are you a deciever??? Are you one that plays games with peoples lives or just screw with them, because you are bored and maybe mentally ill??? I grew up in a house of people who lived a lie… They all went on to profess they are christian and yet, they only way they can prosper,…
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What Do Your Write About, when no one is taking up Residence???
Amnesia, due to traumatic brain injuries and brain bleeds has been, if nothing else an interesting journey… Am I done yet??? Not by a long shot… The family drama played it’s part and now that is over… I am protected from liability and I can delete as I go with the blog… Any attempts to…
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The Road To No Where…
Going to take my life and do what??? Live??? or Die??? As a child that question entered my mind so many times and when the near deaths happened, I prayed to mans god to take me and when, “it”, didn’t, I knew, mans god was nothing more than a human with a set of balls…
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Those pesky dots….
Trying to put together why things hurt and why I am familiar with this pain??? Stroke 1968, Johnson AFB Japan… The before memory of why the stroke happened is there it is recovery after the stroke that has some memory issue, but I remember some things… We lived below the hill outside the main gate…
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Toxoplasma gondii…
I wrote about the parasites that have lived in me since I was born, well, this morning it dawned on me!!! The eye doctor showed me the dead parasite and I thought, foreign, not of my body, low grade infection ever since they did blood work on me and misidentified those results and I have…
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Do You Know GI???
Back in my day, GI meant government issue and it usually was in uniform and they were GI’s… I dated a few in my day on Japan and Okinawa… But that isn’t what this write is about… It’s about the fact that anyone on this planet that thinks they have a right to question me,…
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The Name Will Fade…
We who must remain, must go on living just the same… It wasn’t about me winning or me being in charge… It was about a woman, who gave life to 7 people and lost one before it could be… This woman was a tortured soul and each one of us in that home had a…
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Muddy Waters…
Can you tell if you are stressed??? I can by the tightness of my TMJ, if I have it clenched, then something is brewing and it’s exciting… I know the first stroke happend on Japan outside Johnson AFB and I did loose most of my first 14 years, but by the time we left to…
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Snake Dance Leg…
I wrote that when I was active duty, I complained of this weakness and that weakness and no one could answer… They tried, but you can only do as much as the patient lets you and this patient was in denial… When cutting the back swamp and come across a Indigo I didn’t want to…
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It’s In the Mail…
I like informed delivery, it was great on the big island, because we lived out in Paradise Park near Pahoa and our mail was at Keeau and it was a drive… No mail, no drive… What we pay now for diesel here in Biloxi is what we paid back then in 21… According to the…
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Softball Concussion…
After the drama and I dismissed it, after the hearing, did my venting, like anyone should who works on their mental health and moved on… Judge decided last week, and I forgot and looked yesterday… He’s done… As for the softball, well that migraine that woke me at 1AM and proceeded to make the night…
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Revamping the Site…
I apologize, I found comments in spam, and have fixed that… I am not ignoring anyone, this app has been doing weird for about a month now… Not much for me to talk about or work on… I have a great many other things on my plate, now that the estate thing is over and…
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The Baseball Knock Out!!! Road to dementia…
Not one hundred percent sure what base, but if I had to guess, I would say Webb AFB and it was close to our house but, it could have been in Montgomery too at that AFB, this timeline isn’t fully clear yet, but some of the memory is, because ….. I loved sports, total tomboy,…
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I will Never be Like You….
I have found people see me in different ways and you either love me or you hate me and that has been so, since I was a toddler… I make you uncomfortable, by just watching you… Done that since Freda hurt me as a toddler… That way I knew, when the next blow was going…
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Pull my Finger…
Good morning world, I hope you have a lovely day… After 8 days of miserable body function, we are both feeling better and this was a reminder, Homer and I don’t react the same to virus and COVID 19 proved that… It would put him in bed for days and me, a lil tummy upset,…
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Clarification for the Doubter’s… Noro & Gastro and death…
Have you ever had double phneumonia??? I did at birth… Then proceeded to have Bronchitis from that point on and stupidly smoked in the military and quick decades ago… Then, while in the military they discoverd my rib cage at 24 years of age was that of a 64 year old and because of that…
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Living with Mass Adhesions…
It stands to reason if my skeletal is damaged so are my insides… The Air Force denied me care while active duty and emergency surgery was done a year after my discharge… Mass adhesions means my insides are totally covered in scar tissue… They found that out doing the surgery in 84, that saved my…
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Holy Shit, I connected the Dots!!!
Can a severe blow to a childs thighs cause compartment syndrome…??? Yes, even without a broken bone. The hard impact causes heavy bleeding and swelling inside the muscle’s tight tissue covering (fascia). This trapped pressure cuts off blood flow and is a true medical emergency. Wow, It’s going to be that kind of day, I…
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I know the INJURY cause!!!!
Doing my morning thing and a image flash’s before my eyes and stunned I run to the living room with my toothbrush in mouth and drooling, screaming and pointing at my left leg that has bothered me since the snake dance, “I know the injury”!!!! It goes back to the very early blog where I…
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I Ain’t Got A Clue!!!
How long does it take you to learn something??? https://www.ainpc.com/2026/01/02/what-causes-short-term-memory-loss-issues Before the last blow to my head on Okinawa, I still could read something and remember it or remember the events of things going on and I probably remembered the violence, even before and after the stroke at 14… Now how do I know that???…
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SMORES???
Good morning world, I hope you all have a lovely and peaceful day… Have you ever had a SMORE??? Now some of you out of country may ask what that is and I have the same question, because in 72 years of life, I never had one… You take graham crackers and a chunck of…
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How they tried to push me out a window!!! Tort Claims against the feds…
Ever wonder how Putin stays in power??? Or how Trump and his raping cult stay in power??? They buy it and what they can’t buy, they push out a window!!! About oh 3 months before I got pushed out of the Air Force after the rape and attempted murder of my kids on Vance AFB,…
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Marriage License & Escapee during trial, was it one of Charles Mansons?…
A person on blue sky posted about the Tate murders and I have a memory connected to that… Time line is not a 100% and I don’t have the divorce papers anymore, so I don’t know the date or year we married, this would have been my 1st marriage out of 6… We were at…
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