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Why only the left Side???
When Freda beat me, I was little… In fact my nickname growing up was Olive Oil or Skinny weeinie, because I was skin and bones and not because I was denied food… My body was in constant healing mode and what little I did eat, rarely sat well… That goes on to this day… I…
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Final Piece to the Puzzle… corrected dates edited…
Managing the long-term effects of a pediatric central spinal cord injury requires a highly tailored approach, especially when dealing with asymmetric upper limb weakness and severe muscle knotting. The “knotting” you describe in the shoulder muscles is very frequently a combination of neurogenic spasticity (involuntary, sustained muscle contractions caused by disrupted spinal signals) and secondary…
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Breaking the Bonds…
I am a rebel!!! Are you??? Did you do, just because your parents told you not too??? Did you rebel like a reble??? My morning has been one of interesting reflections and the journey my brain is taking me on now, it’s very unlike anything I have experienced since before I was 14, before the…
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Less is More…
Amnesia has been an experience I wish on no one, except maybe the idol worshippers and Trumps mafia… but lets move on… Figuring out what happened the last 33 years, before Homer and I even met or got married… and it all goes back to one doctor… That doctor put me on thyroid medication, that…
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Levothyroxine… The drug from hell…
Well how about that… Sitting and taking a break from moping floors and I think of when the doctor in Omak put me on levothyroxine and I should have never taken one pill… 1993… By the time we get to Hawaii in 2016, I had been on this drug from hell and well being on…
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DNA??? Did you do the test???
Back in 2009 I am guessing on timelines, only because I haven’t looked up information to confirm, so we approximate until I write the book or short stories… I paid for a DNA test on me, Homer, my sister, my son too I think… and what we found out confirmed who’s daughter I was, and…
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Trust is Earned… Not Given… updated…7:48am
The family reunion happened within a year or 2 of our moving to that little town… (Some timelines are not 100% clear on the year)… All of us kids at Don and Freda’s… and I mean all of us… Including my older half brother… A year or two before our move to that little town,…
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Brain Healing is not Chronic!!!
I have chronic conditions that have been the way they are since the first injury inflicted on me at a year old… The compartment syndrome at 5 along with blunt force trauma fractures all over my body and throw in internal injuries… Then by the time the TBI happened in Texas… I was walking chronic…
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Now What???
The questions that I put before doctors, even before I entered the military in 1977… All of those questions!!! I figured out… Just wow on this journey to remember and the real crux of all of it…??? Living with injuries you don’t know how you got them…. and that was my catalyst to get answers……
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Do You Believe in Magic??? Long Covid….
Long COVID: Lasting effects of COVID-19 Some people continue to experience health problems long after having COVID-19. Understand the possible symptoms and risk factors for post-COVID-19 syndrome. By Mayo Clinic Staff Aug. 23, 2024 After any coronavirus disease 2019 (COVID-19) illness, no matter how serious, some people report that symptoms stay for months. This lingering…
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RSV!!! I had it on Japan!!!
Occurrence of respiratory syncytial virus subgroup A and B strains in Japan, 1980 to 1987 H Tsutsumi 1, M Onuma, K Suga, T Honjo, Y Chiba, S Chiba, P L Ogra I have been trying to remember what happened on Japan and I know the kids were at my parents in Arkansas during this time period and John and I were in…
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I was wrong about SARs on Japan in the 80’s, so what was it???
I have written numerous times about a virus that hit Yokota AFB back in the 80’s and I was bowling in a league and that virus did me under and I lost time and memory… Only one little problem??? I can find no record of said virus hitting the far east and that means…. WHAT???…
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Died Twice!! So!! Do I Get To Own My Life Now???
Am I getting any closer to remembering specific details about my near deaths??? I mean for real, people out there say they had near deaths, but they heard song, saw a god and family and I am thinking!!!! WHAT A LOAD OF BULLSHIT TO GET ON NATIONAL TV AND BECOME A INFLUENCER!!!!! My near deaths…
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What is a Gift???
Ya know, I was raised Baptist… Antiquated beliefs, with mental illness on steroids, because they think Mary volunteered to be raped… When you decide your actions are not crimminal, you will say you are a christian… When I found out I was pregnant after being raped, like any good christian I decided to have the…
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1960’s Kid’s Survived..
Funny day today… Remembering this stuff isn’t on my radar… Figuring out how to keep critters from eating my garden is and this memory of a old station wagon and how we survived hanging our ass’s out that back window… Fumes coming in and crashing out after what ever we were playing or reading did…
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Traveling Memories…
Hows your memory??? Have you ever noticed that politics plays well into being a liar and did you know that if you claim to live by a god or wear a cross, you are no different than those in politics…Liars… Are all of them liars, no some are actually good and honest people who are…
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Living with Parasites after their Death… in your Body!!!
https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/eye-parasites When I was active duty, I was told I had H-pylori… A stomach parasite that can live in the lining of our stomachs and they have been known to cause stomach cancer… So the Air Force in all their wisdom, hit both of my butt cheeks with penicilin and misdiagnoised me with a STD……
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Stirring the Pot…
I have tried over the last several weeks… I have tried to figure out Freda’s agenda and when I look at the psychology side of it, I am not to sure she had one… At least not in the sense of retribution, but she was mentally ill and I can’t dismiss some of the things…
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Clinical Depression and it’s Swan Song…
I have said for many years if not decades, “You can’t miss what you never had”, but it doesn’t mean you can’t long for something you think you are missing out on and there in lies the trap… When the Arkansas VA shrink said I had clinical depression, he couldn’t tell me why I had…
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Bagwells and Facebook…
Getting a new phone number after Fredas death means!!!! Facebook can’t block me… All my info has changed…🤬😡😈😇🙉🙈🙊🤣😉 Gee that sounds sooooo appealing, Bagwells thrive on face book😉🤣😘😇 I remember… Bluesky censors certain states, violation of first amendment rights… copyright protected 2026 all rights reserved Seems word press has been compromised… Had to take a…
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Is It Finally Over???
I told my sister Peggy about 10 years or so ago… “It wouldn’t be over till she was dead, Freda (mom)”… and you know what…??? I was right… I could see the mental health side of this decades ago and I knew who the master of the whole mess was and then I go have…
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My oh My or Me oh My???
Can you get over PTSD 100%??? I don’t think you can escape it all, but you can overcome a great portion of it, or at least, that’s the way it feels for me… My PTSD was obvious by the time I was 5 years old and because of the abuse, I was already in protective…
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It Happened for a Reason??? NOT!!!
I am watching commercials on Amazon’s Prime and they are nothing more than subliminal messaging and if you have critical thinking, go take a look… Lots of them… Things in life do not happen for a reason… How do I know that??? Because I have lived my 72 years of life and a good portion…
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Anesthesia and the Brain damage that follows…
Here is a link to a Harvard study…. https://hms.harvard.edu/news-events/publications-archive/brain/anesthesia-brain Did you know that if you have brain trauma like I have and you go on to have any surgery where anesthesia is used, they can screw your brain up even more if your brain is in healing mode!!!!! Well let me first thank Shepard AFB…
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Action Collaborates a Memory…
There are many people out there with all kinds of muscle and nerve diseases and their medical situation is rarely caused the way mine was caused… Do you exercise??? Ever use that heavy rope, one in each hand and whip that sucker for all your are worth and feel like your arms just did a…
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Mojo took a Hiatus….
Happy Friday or are you sleep deprived like me because it stormed all night??? We have more rolling in also, but we are dry, so it is needed… I was concerned with my ability to write without the emotional upheaval of family drama… or government corruption or lack of VA health care or just freaking…
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I Lost My Obsession??
For decades I have been obsessed with finding those lost memories from before I turned 14 years old and the bleed on the brain from Don’s beating me!!! Didn’t think of anything else, except normal living moments or work moments, but my free time from living life and working… I thought of those lost memories…
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Orange Poncho…
She sat there sewing, the cold permeated that Japanese home outside Johnson AFB…. I could smell the oil burning that heated the old house…. I turned an wandered back to the couch, still recovering from the beating Don gave me that caused a stroke… They were hiding me away…. Time stood still for me during…
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Influencers or Bible or Politics???
Wanna know how to tell fakes on the internet, especially on a place like Blue Sky??? Influencers that rant and rave about child abuse or domestic violence, yet, they never experienced the abuse or the rapes and they are not interested in anything more than building their follower count!!! I been back on Blue Sky…
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Sensory Overload…
Do you like laser light shows??? I went to one at a place in Hilo, HI to see the stars and it was set with music… I had to keep my head down through the whole show… I couldn’t tolerate the lasers or all the flashing lights or all the noise or all the visual…
