Amazing how the mind wanders when you are exhausted and wander mine did… and of course it’s about Freda…

Why did she put me in the WILL??? Why involve me in the end if I was to be denied being by her side by the people she thought she could trust…???

I keep going back to the conversation I had with Don before he died, the last time I sat with him…

He proceeded to tell me what he thought of each and every one of his kids… I didn’t buy it at first, but I left home at 18 and my youngest brother is 3 months older than my 2nd son… Big distance between me and the 2 youngest…

Once I stood up to Don and Freda, at Naha AFB and at Mather AFB, I knew any relationship I once had was gone and I went on and lived my life, unknown to me at that time that I had multiple brain injuries, blunt force trauma fractures all over my skeleton and extensive nerve damage and muscle damage and compartment syndrome in all my limbs… Yea say all that fast 3 times!!!

Not knowing didn’t mean I wasn’t aware… I was always aware and somehow I fit the text books of the 21st century in my recovery and my 20th century medical history said I was not all there, not really but, it got old trying to get tests done so I could have answers…

I had to lie to get the contrast Brain MRI… but once it was done, they quit questioning what I was telling them… Only took from 1977 when I went active duty, till spring of last year to get those answers… 2025…

When I set Freda up in 2010, and told her I was missing memory, but I never said what memory and nor did I tell her when my son told me her brat raped my kid… I gave information without context… and she knew I had no love loss for another brother and the other sister, well those tire tracks on my back never faded…

So why leave me in the WILL???

That’s a answer I will never have, nor will I ever understand how anyone can call themselves christian, yet they lie, steal, cheat and rape and I got handed the death card, so murder is on the table… and declare they are good people???

No, I won’t ever get why she left me in the WILL…

My family knew nothing of the life I have lived or the people I met or mingled with or the opportunities I turned down, because of what they did to me….

Not anymore…

Now the family knows the truth and they know I have evidence, not only in government records, but Don’s military sealed records are going to be a doozy and my military records…

Those records, are going to be fun to get, but what I have gotten, shows me how much cover up Vance went too when they pushed me out… Don’s records will be a bit harder to get, they are sealed…

As for the opportunities, they once again have presented themselves… and it is taking discipline to keep that in mind and not close up shop and vacate the premises… I am tired…

But the one thing I have always wanted, since the first rape at 12 and the rapes in the Air Force… The one thing I have always wanted???

For someone to know my story…

I know the Epstein survivor’s are wanting theirs heard…

Don’t we all deserve to have that platform and be heard???

I remember…

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