After the memory trigger I started pushing for answers and by the fall of 2019, I was getting a contrast MRI and it showed the holy grail!!!

Moderate TBI on the right frontal lobe and the brain bleeds were also on the right side of my brain… Throw in over 20 concussions and you got a soup ready to stir and some how it got stirred…

I have never remembered a cache of memories from before I was 14 years old and those memories, held every dirty little secret of Freda’s and now I know why she had a blank stare the day I told I was missing memory back in 2010… Now I know….

With the Clancy trial, I truly believe the child was having a break down and I know that dark path she took, I almost took it myself… She has true mental illness and will always suffer for the lives she took, not only in her mind, but in her every being… She needs help…

Where as with my mother, she was cold and calculating and once she got past the childbirth of her lover’s kid, she played her song and dance up till the day she died…

I hope my siblings took note of how Don and Freda both died…

All about choices and they followed in those foot steps…

So I know, without a neurologist ever telling me again… I won’t remember that cache of memories and I was smart enough when the stroke happened to do the mantra, (see early blog) and that mantra set me on my path to remember everything else that was important, so Important, I never forgot any of it…

When I was on Japan from 83 thru 87… SARS hit and it was killing people… Now at this time I am in my 30’s, they are doing nuclear bone scans every six months and other tests trying to figure out all my issues and I get SARS and my brain is still healing, in fact it is still healing to this day and continues daily… but I digress…

SARS did me under, I lost a cache of time and after I recovered from it, I never felt like me again and now all you hear is Long Covid… Well SARS is COVID… See where I am going…

I have been trying to figure out how I did a memory dump and pretty much wiped out my life before SARS… Then I have a botched surgery on the El Paso VA table and they do something that causes a overdose of anesthesia and yea, brain still healing and they put what SARS did into overdrive… Nov 2011…

It finally cleared completely this year… Thanks to family stress… Go figure…

I didn’t have any more strokes…

I had the one at 14 when Don beat me at Johnson AFB, Japan and I had another bleed, when he knocked me across the room on Naha AFB, Okinawa 1971…

Neither he or Freda ever laid a hand on me again…

So there is my mystery… IF COVID 19 causes long term fog, then it came from the original SARS that killed a lot of people in the far east and that time line is still fuzzy…

Another subject put to rest… I have only had 2 strokes and 2 near deaths and all before I made it to 18 years old and some how….

I came out smelling like a rose… see early blogs…

Have a safe labor day, vote…

I remember…

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