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He Wanted me To Protect Her!!!???
Don died in 2006… by this time I knew I was missing memory and a lot of memory… When I sat with Don that one time he was lucid, he talked and he talked a great deal… and one of those things he talked about was Freda… His one and only love… He wanted to…
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Crime & Punishment… All of us knew… ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
According to the laws I read about elder abuse, state and federal… Arkansas only goes back 3 years to prosecute, and that tells me this is a state that is geared to facism and not democracy, where as the federal will investigate 10 years back!!! Freda died January of 2025… So I figure if we…
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Timeline fix!!!
Don came back from Vietnam in the early spring of 67, we were moved from Bonita to Big Springs before mother’s day!!! I wrote about mother’s day a couple blogs back!!! The picture shows how far she was by mothers day, look at those blogs… This was a note to me about time lines and…
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The Brain Won’t Slow Down!!!
I have had migraines ever since the TV interview beating, so having them now isn’t so bad, you get used to them and adapt… But damn it!!! It won’t slow down and give me a break… I have talked Homer’s ear off this afternoon, telling him the memories I remember and how it all tied…
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What was The day the breakdowns started…Edited 3:34pm 7/31
I just took a little trip back in time and when that happens, yep, gotta document, only way It is going to stick with me, is if I document!!! Don was in Vietnam and had been there at least a few months, not sure on the dates, because this is the area of my memories…
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The Sadness is Gone… edited
I have had more bad experiences with mental health people than I have had positive… The only positive one was at the El Paso VA and the guy was a brilliant psychologist, that was murdered by a patient at the VA facility… But he impacted my life before he died… When I got a copy…
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Come on and Take a Free Ride…
My oldest, the talented vocal and instrument artist, buying his own ranch is a total music freak… I used too be one, had a couple hundred albums, killer sound system and by the time I moved to Washington to work for USDA… It would be less than 5 years and I lost interest in music…
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It all Died with Her!!!
Coffee hot, morning sunrise and it’s all quiet in our little part of the world and the knowledge it all died with her… I just had to get there!!! The mental health journey on this nightmare of a life, has been one for the text books and it helps me understand everything Homer is experiencing,…
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It’s Not About Me!!!
One thing Homer used to really like, before the dementia moved in, is how I went after the federal government 6 times without a lawyer, 2 times for my social security and no lawyer and one time to get Homer’s SS before he was eligible… No lawyers… Why??? I can read… Can’t you read??? Trying…
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Only You!!!
Living with this amnesia has been a journey I hope no one else ever experiences, expecially if you have photographic memory… Over the last few weeks, memories have come back, but not as many as I had hoped for… I only have a couple of memories before 14 that are pleasant… Everything else my brain…
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Good Bye KneeJerk Reaction!!!
Hows your day going??? I am excited… Probably why I couldn’t sleep… I passed the threshold on the kneejerk reactions!!!! I PASSED!!!!! I got the biggest kick out of people on face book when they said they understood mental health issues… Maybe 1 in 500,000 really understands, that doesn’t have an education… Never liked social…
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Upon the White Horse!!! 🤬🤬🤬
What is it pestulence or something ridiculous with superstitions and nonsense??? I get a email out of the blue, but not really… If you truly know psychology, this is playing out exactly how I expected… High IQ strikes again… Wish it would make me easy money… anyway… Email comes in with a offer and giving…
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Chronic Brain Fatigue…
Ever hear those words… ??? I don’t mean chronic fatigue syndrome, I am talking the brain because of a specific biology or trauma events… https://www.cognitivefxusa.com/blog/neural-fatigue-after-brain-injury-tbi Chronic fatigue is a lot different from the Chronic Brain Fatigue… I always thought I fell into the chronic fatigue category and come to find out… Nope, that’s what my…
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Good Memories?? I didn’t Expect That!!!
How’s your day going??? Our’s already a scorcher and I got the house closed up and as much stuff off power as possible… We have data centers in our state and well, I don’t want to be without AC… So back off on our usage to help out… Homer and I were talking about the…
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Reality, Sub-concious and the ID…
Watching Homer’s dementia in real time, takes me back to what I was experiencing in 2017 and the excitment I felt for finally breaking free from the ID…(psychology) Fighting those basic instincts I had been born with did me little good, in the end, they are the same instincts that kept me alive, but the…
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The Results of Neurological Damage…
By a couple of my old pictures, you can see my legs… I used to force myself to stand ramrod straight and created even more issues… Thus what I am fighting now to get nerves to quit being so bitchy… The next few pictures show the progression of injuries that were visible after the last…
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Snap, Crackle & Pop!!!
Good morning world!!! and no Trump isn’t dead… You and me and a few billion more out there are wishing his death and it can’t happen soon enough, but you figure they are hiding McConnell’s death, so, weekend at Bernies, will be weekend at the White House morgue??? Hell of a way to start off…
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When did you start POT???
I knew about the drug and all the other stuff out there, but I also had a tyrant for a father and I wasn’t interested in trying anything while we were on Japan or Okinawa… and I had plenty of opportunity… Vietnam was ongoing and I dated my fair share of GI’s back then and…
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My Death Stole from Me…
This is my experience, not some myth… Not some story… This is my experience with death and how science and religion create a pattern of incomplete information… Everyone knows if you have a brain injury you have a few things that can happen… They say you can remember the before but not the during or…
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Where is the Chaos???
If you have never met someone who is paranoid schizophrenic… It’s defintely an interesting relationship… I dated a guy that was one and knew nothing about the neurological disorder… He was a little on the kinky side, but, a real nice guy, just not my type… But I learned about the illness and it gave…
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What I learned from FB & Twitter!!!
How long were you on and are you still??? I tried it off and on for a few years, then the memory trigger happened and it was gloves off and face book and twitter didn’t like my verbage which not even close to what Trump says and that was 2017 when twitter banned me and…
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Either way I Win!!!
There are days, when writing isn’t going to happen, either because I am happy and content and got nada or days like today and it hits hard with memories and well, gotta write… Talking with Homer about the antagonist on Blue sky and how I eliminated more than a couple over the last couple days…
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I created a Monster???!!!
Do you like being the center of attention…??? Becasue I was so smart at such a young age, Freda kept her eyes on me and she had no problem letting me know how stupid I was, because, she was actually ill educated… Smoke and mirrors is a con’s go to… look at Trump… Not going…
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Hello Pain🤬🤬🤬🤬
IT IS OFF THE CHART… Little sleep, lots of cracking and popping as I push C1-C7 back in place… The nerves that run up the sides of your neck are directly related to those vertebrae… if they are out of alignment, the pain going into the temporal lobe triggers very nasty kaleidoscope migraines… After pushing…
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Wait Till Your Father Gets Home?!?
I can only imagine how many of you heard those words and were preparing yourself for what ever went on in your household… In our household… Those words meant…??? You pissed off Freda… Nothing more, nothing less and it didn’t matter your age, till you became legal… If she couldn’t hurt you, she would send…
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Bouncy, Bouncy or Boing?!?!
Good morning world as I look out at my flags and the trees as Bertha stirs the pot down here in the Ocean Springs area… I do love living here, I think we bought a house in the banana belt, in other words, if wind and minor flooding is all we get… I am good…
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Timeline Cleanse!!!
Are you ready for Bertha…??? We took everything loose and moved them into the garage and made sure we could pull the truck in if we have hail… But so far, we are getting only winds and maybe rain… Thinking about this tropical storm, took me back to Okinawa and the TIMELINE cleaned it’s self…
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He Knocked me Across the Room!!!
Naha AFB, Okinawa, Japan, 1970… This time line is starting to get clearer, but I still have some more to recover in that time line… Our leaving Japan, never set well in my memory… I know this much… We stayed in this hotel for several months and my brother who’s birthday is in December, mom…
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The Escape Room Clause…
Do you like mysteries and do you like reading books about crimes and do you like solving those mysteries and crimes??? Like any kid, I was deep into Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys and anything else I could get my hands on at the local library… Owning a book, only a bible in our home, unless…
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Adaptation…
Every break a finger or arm or leg or hip or collar bone or any body part??? And you learned quickly how to adapt to your injury??!!! Now imagine you are 5 or 6 years old, and your fingers are broken and your arms are fractured and your legs are fractured and your spine is…
