Good morning readers and thank you, from all over the world for picking my blog back up and reading it…

One thing about amnesia, it gives you no breaks or chances or anything… Either you regain memories or you walk through life with a gaping hole in your memory world…

When I realized I was missing memory, I was only 19 and pregnant with my first child… Little did I know, those hormones, which had only been active in my body since I was 16 years old… were going to have a field day with my life until 2017…

They tell women we need HRT replacement and we probably do, but what they don’t tell you, if you have brain trauma of any kind!!!!

IT CAN IMPACT YOUR BLOOD WORK FOR DECADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yea when that science came out recently, I wanted to throw something, anything and break it… Because I had screamed that same statement since I was 19!!!!!!!

Neurology on Hawaii may not think I have Edetic memory, but Homer knows I do and so do I… Yea it hiccups more than I like, but it works and it may take me 24 hours to recall something, but, I recall it….

Amnesia is like living with dementia on steroids…

I went through the hallucinations and boy howdy, I really know for a fact, psycedellics will never cross my lips and I lived through every thing else dementia patients live with…

Hearing or seeing what wasn’t there or never was… That is one part of my journey, I know dementia patients get really scared over, because it scared me and I was aware… They aren’t as aware and it leaves them gasping for air, because their world just became gossamer and cobwebs of vision in their reality…

Why the write… The mental health side, is going the way I had hoped it would go as the court works out the estate and that could never get done… They could leave my filing on the record up to the end of the 5 year period and then, the state takes over or they could leave it all sitting there and create even more problems and that is why I took out a “Umbrella Policy in March”…. because the way I filed documents, I made it really hard for the court to screw me, like Trump gets the courts to screw Americans…

Having that job at the Staff Judge Advocates office at 5th Air Force, yea, I learned a few things and beating the system was my first lesson…

As the PTSD comes to a end on that court filing from March… the brain is getting back to the basics of writing the story and figuring out how and what and when, etc… and what is real nice about this whole scenario….

I am winning, not the PTSD, not the amnesia, not the mental health connections… Nope, after 69 years… that little girl who suffered the central spinal cord injury before the age of 2… is waking up…

As I continue my growth out of this darkness, it feels good, but I still have self doubts and I still have those knee jerk moments… but my reactions to all that, have changed…

Watching Homer’s journey, reminds me… I get to grow as I watch him regress…

Life is giving me a 2nd chance and taking the one good thing out of my life…

Homer…

I remember…

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