There are days, when you forget your partner has dementia and he behaves like he always has and then you remind yourself…

He has had dementia since you met him… and he knows that some of those years, he was aware of it, but denial played into the picture and then my brutal honesty… Ended that facade…

We go shopping at Walmart and usually I do self check out, but the last 2 times… Homer left items behind at the register and I didn’t notice it, till we got home, paid for the items but the items were not in our stuff… So… You adapt…

Today I went through a check out and the tennis shoes Homer got for outside yard work had no tag, so we asked him the price and he said $30 and the cashier looked them up and they were actually $35…

This happens frequently and anymore, I order stuff, instead of going to a box store…

As Homer’s symptoms get more advanced the only difference, they are more intense… He has done this behavior since I met him 32 years ago…

Homer is one of those, that had dementia from a young age, because of Lyndon factor 5 and his car accident that broke his neck… He was doomed from the get go and getting through to him on days like today… Yea, shovel and make sure no one is looking!!!

I leave him alone with the pups while they eat their treat and all hell breaks loose, because, he is doing things he shouldn’t be… like not paying attention…

As the dynamics change, they change in a way that tells me… I am doing more baby sitting than anything else, because I never know when the confusion or the feeling of lost in a current moment will arise…

You CAN NOT treat them like children… They are adults with a neurologial disease that they have zero control over and you had better have some patience in reserve, because you will need them…

I get angry when stupid happens and I have to step back and think… Disease, not deliberate behavior….

DISEASE!!!!!!!!! And that takes the wind out of my sails…

It won’t get easier as times pass’s and I know that… I also know… He is aware some of the time and some of the time, his brain has taken him on a journey and it only had one ticket and I get to watch from the sidelines…

Be it dementia or any other neurological disease!!! You are not fighting the person…

YOU ARE FIGHTING A DISEASE….!! and it can defeat you in a heart beat if you let it…

Lots to report to the neurologist at the end of the month and I doubt things with him will change… They won’t do the IV drugs unless they meet a certain criteria and since we don’t have billions like Trump, we will have to do the best we can… and hope Trump has a massive stroke… (oh please do!!!)..

So our outing this morning was full of frustrations, confusion and productiveness and I still feel like I hit a brick wall of frustrations… (I need to go smoke a bowl)!!!

Have an awesome day and pray for a funeral that encompass’s the whole republican party!!!

I remember…

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