#104… Basic Training!!! 1977*

I always wanted to join the military and when we got back from Okinawa in 72… I went and took the test at 18… High School graduate and I flunked the Air Force test!!!???

I was mystified!!!

I walk in the door and Freda yells, “the Navy called they’ll take you”… laughing her cackle that wasn’t all that pleasant or sincere…

So, what does any kid do that wants out from under the threat of violence… Well after anoying my parents by, touch me and you see jail, because I was 18… But also, I was remembering…

I get out and about in life, take a nanny job, that was on a ranch that had a horse related to Secretariate… so, you know it was high end in Livermore… and the rape happened… So I took another nanny job and the guy tried the same thing and by now I am kind of dating but not dating and the guy rapes me and I get preganant… and I cut all ties and move back to Sacramento to have my kid…

Now we talked about marriage #1, it was doomed from the get go… Marriage #2 would allow me to go into the Air Force if I passed the tests and what changed from 1972 to 1977???

Hormones…

Because of all the internal damage Don and Freda did to me, I didn’t have menstrual cycle till I was almost 17, according to my records and the Air Force in all their wisdom took my organs out in 78… so I had from 1970 to 78 to enjoy having hormones and then they were gone and Mrs Jekyl was born…

So you have some back story… Why the write???

Basic training was my first hard clue that I was missing memory… I suspected something was off by the time I left home in 72… by the time I went to basic I knew things weren’t right and one of the exercises in basic showed me, I had a stroke, I just didn’t know it or remember it…

We have a obstacle course we have to accomplish to graduate and of course our squadron went up against the boys and we had a blast and a few of us got very wet on one of the obstacles and that is the one that told me… You had a stroke…

As I approached the rope swing over the open water, I knew I had to run and jump for the rope with enough force to swing across without getting soaked…

I took off running and I pushed off with all my might and grabbed that rope… with my left hand and nearly fell in, my right saved me… I was puzzled, why was my left side weak and I thought stroke and filed it away, because if that was true, someone would have told me????

But they didn’t… They put my life at risk every time I got pregnant and every time I did anything that could cause another bleed on the brain…

From 1977 till my discharge in 83, I went through a bunch of tests and no answers but they were suspcious, but didn’t tell me… my discharge was supposed to be a medical board, but when the 1st Sgt son raped and tried killing my kids, ya know the ghost story … Honorable they had no choice… and they shipped us off to Japan… My husband was active duty too…

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Clues were always there… Freda would drop hints in conversations and when I stook up to her at Mather AFB, before I went in the military, I knew, any family I had was gone, because she would make sure of it… 1975 and I lost everything I got beaten to death for, by standing up to the bully… Freda…

Well, that’s the write… Just a reminder to myself… I was remembering and something between the time of 1972 before Homer and I married in 94, I had another stroke and I got a feeling that was the SARs event in the far east and I nearly died… now we call it COVID, that was 86… or 85… I don’t remember much about that time frame…

More and more memory that somehow slipped away after leaving home is coming back… I don’t fully understand all this stroke stuff, I just know what the MRI’s show on my brain and I just know what I have lived with since the first stroke on Japan at 14…

Confused yet… yea me too… break time…

I remember…