The night I made Mongolian beef stir fry, by 12:30 after midnight it hit and it hit hard…

So I thought okay, that’s a spicy meal and it’s fried a little so, that’s 1 result… Then I make sweet and sour pork, my way, no problems… (I use apple vinegar)… and last night we had Fajitas, again my way, not as spicy and this morning has been one definite living hell…

We take off for the store early, get our errands done and the minute I pull in the driveway, it hits!!!

All encompassing sweats, chills, shakes, and a feeling of being hypoglocemic…?! Not counting the over whelming desire to up chuck everything from last night that hadn’t digested…

This routine is so old it is disgusting and use too, I have Homer grab me a soda in the store or at home, because sugar crash??? Only one problem… I am not diabetic and my pre diabetes was always because of the pancreas, and not anything else…

So today, when the pancreas flare hit, I went inside immediately, took a couple hits on the pipe and turned the fan on to cool me and waited for it to pass…

It took me a hour to eat my sliced up apple… It’s getting longer and longer periods for me to consume food and not to want to upchuck right away…

I have tried to figure out what caused this last nasty bad flare that had me in such a brain fog from hell, I would say it happened when the memory trigger happened and I have been stressed and overwhelmed finding out my whole birth family is nothing but a bunch of people who cry christian, as they lie, steal, cheat, rape and murder their way through life and now that I know I never missed a damn thing being away from those people…

Yea, my stress level is in the toilet…

Homer’s illness is not the issue, my health isn’t the issue and the family drama died the day they, my brothers and sisters, decided I had no right to be by my mother’s side at the end… Yep, Christians!!! (sick mother fuckers!!!)

So, what does all this mean???

It means, now I know why I go through this weird sugar feeling and why the nauseau and the cramping and why all of it, was never properly diagnoised….

Did you hear Christine Applegate does not have MS, they haven’t said what she does have, but, if someone with money can’t get good health care in America, do you really expect any of the rest of us to get it ?????

Well, my day is shot, because of the episode today… It always leaves me exhausted and fighting the body to keep the food down… Today was a very thin line between chair and throne…

Have a wonderful day, ours is gorgeous and I am goofing for a while…

I remember…

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