A month or so back, after I came back on Blue Sky under my name and not my .com…. I picked up a couple of follower’s….

I won’t say names, because… It’s not a popularity contest… I was humbled, but then I got to thinking… this isn’t the first time I drew attention from people who were or are in some kind of power position…

I rubbed elbows with the rich and famous and I didn’t like the friction of the fake behavior, so I passed and went on with living my life, without them, in my life…

They are, after all, just humans, who happen to garner more attention than I do, but then, I am not really trying, am I???

When Adorablespite had a page on BlueSky, my following was over 16,000 and climbing… I found it all so fake and most of all, I really dislike social media and then the mental health crisis hit me, the last mental health step I needed to take out of this amnesia and when that happened???…

I shut my blog down and I shut my blue sky page down and I stayed offline for about a month… It took me that long to get past the fight or flight mechanism I had lived since the first injury before the age of 1…..

I came back online slowly… Didn’t take any direct messages… I still needed to find my way out of the paranoia I had experienced since the first injury to my spinal cord at 1 year old…

That’s 70 years of living fight or flight and if you read the early blog, you know I was tested for Cushing’s… I knew it wasn’t a disease, but that was 6 years before the memory trigger…

So why the write???

I could care less if I am poplular or not… I could care less what you or anyone else thinks of me…

What I do care about, you, the people have repeatedly shown…

You could really care less….

You really don’t care about rape, unless it impacts you… You really could care less about elder abuse, unless it impacts you and you really could care less about children who grew up with amnesia, unless it impacts you…

Most people really could care less, why???

Lack of self awareness and no critical thinking… All about numbers and being popular…

Recently someone posted on blue sky about someone who is a celebertity following them…

That happened to me and at first, I was surprised and then I was touched and then I got paranoid and wondered, why???

Then another person followed that has status out there… By the time the 2nd one followed, I shrugged it off and thought, maybe they are just curious… and it means nothing else, but the fact, they are curious…

I think for me, I don’t need that check mark on blue sky via my .com….. I don’t need affirmation by people or computers or algorithms….

I need me… I need to believe in me and I need to support me and I need to take care of me…

No one else is going to do it and no one else ever did… Homer is alive, because of me…

I am alive, because of me… What more do I need???

I remember…

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