Ya know, I was raised Baptist… Antiquated beliefs, with mental illness on steroids, because they think Mary volunteered to be raped… When you decide your actions are not crimminal, you will say you are a christian…

When I found out I was pregnant after being raped, like any good christian I decided to have the baby…

On a drive from Livermore to Sacramento with my dad and grandmother, my dad asked why I didn’t get an abortion…???!!! The man is total christian to the max when it suits him…

For me, the choice to give birth was a mixture of guilt, I got pregnant, not by choice, but the body was carrying life and I believe in life, so, I go forward and have a kid…

Around 17 years old that kid questioned my life and we never had the same relationship since… He is 52 now…

I gave life as a gift… My kids had every opportunity for higher education and my kids didn’t lack for anything… and my kids survived rape and attempted murder on Vance AFB, because I gave them the gift of life…

Everything my sons did from that point on in 1980 after the rape and attempted murder in base housing… I knew, that gift of life would take twists and turns and I wouldn’t have a whole lot to say, because I gave them the gift… and others took from that gift…

The biggest thing about this write… I am a planner… We don’t live extravagantly and never have… We donate where we can, we give were we can and we help were we can and expect nothing in return…

Because I plan everything out, we were able to travel the USA, move to Hawaii, live 5 years there and travel more upon our return to the mainland… All because I plan…

Our next plans involved a lot of international traveling and that got shut down with Homer’s diagnosis of Alzheimers and Lewy Body is the thought of his type of disease… so there in lies the rub on gifts…

We don’t eat out, we don’t buy junk and we don’t waste our money… Instead I make us live very tight so that I can pay our bills off years, if not decades early and because of what I do… It means our kids could come out with more money than they will ever see at their own behest… and that!!!!

STICKS IN MY THROAT!!!!!!!!!!

If Homer wasn’t ill, I would sell this house in 8 more years and spend my hard earned capital, instead of gifting our kids 6 figures of cash each!!!!

Anything can happen over the next several years… We could see a depression worse than the original depression or we could see inflation like we saw under Reagan where home loans hit 12%, I know, I bought a house during that time period on excellent credit and my VA loan was 12%!!!!!!!!!

It is one thing to gift someone for helping you, being there for you and caring about you… It’s another to gift someone who didn’t do a goddamn thing to earn any of it…

Our kids are not christians, but they sure act like them and the reason we have little to do with our adult kids.??? You can’t hide who you really are from your mom and dad and I know the real kids we have and I can’t be swayed by their excuses or illusions of mental illness without concrete proof of said mental health conditions… (Yea, I lived it, so, I have rules and it involves science, not heresay)…

That’s been my nighttime drama in my sleep… and it’s been a topic of conversation with Homer… I haven’t changed our WILLs yet, but they will be and I will be seriously looking at giving the kids what they deserve, not what they didn’t earn…

We hired help with our last flip and we paid through the noise for that help… If our kids and grankids want a cut of the pie Homer and I worked our ass off for 30 years… well those same people have got work ahead of them… right now, a few charities are more appealing than our kids… and it’s not like our kids are awful…

Just selfish and selfish is what christians and Trump are best known for…

I remember…

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