When memory, hits Reality???

Good morning world and I do hope you have a nice day….

Waking up at 3AM, not a surprise… I slept good and sound and only got up once I think, before waking and not able to fall asleep again, so, I started my coffee and my day…

This fistula thing, I had heard about it at one time, but, never thought twice about it… The brain MRI, didn’t mean anything to me, I understood the bleed and the TBI, but that’s all that made sense, and I was experiencing brain fog, so, not surprised, I let this fall through the crack…

This is what has me a little spooked…..

Up until our move to New Mexico, my blood pressure was happy, it didn’t go up to much when I went into any doctor’s office or VA, but about 2011, that changed and I told the doctor I shouldn’t be on levothyroxine and got over road and I told them a great many other things and El Paso and Las Cruces VA, failed, 100%…

By the time we get to Hawaii in 16, my BP is climbing and it’s not a good thing and it is suggested I take meds… I declined, because????

WHY???

I was a non smoker, our diet was excellent, we walked on average a mile or more with 5 dogs for years and all of a sudden, my BP goes up????

WHY???

That is what nobody bothered to check out and then the doctor that told me on Hawaii my TBI had no value as far as my brain went, she is the one I tricked into doing the MRI that started this mess, because I had symptoms and that Fiesta scan, will show why I have symptoms and why my BP has continued to climb even today, with healthy diet, perfect blood work and I work out, but it is climbing and I don’t have any vein problems???

So what happened to get my juices flowing to push for that above MRI???

Surgery…

I had a rectocell procedure done on Honolulu and the VA made me get on a plane 2 hours after discharge, same day as surgery and sent me home to the big island… (Yea and bone spurs gets top notch care)….

That procedure was Feb 14, 2017… A few months before my memory trigger…

Because I promised the surgeon I would be fully inactive for 6 months, I couldn’t do any workouts or elliptical or lift a gallon of milk, but my legs were bothering me and I asked, can I do specific leg exercises to keep my mobility and she agreed and ???????

It happened… While working out 3 months after that surgery, I had symptoms of a stroke and I am thinking when the hell did I have a stroke and on November 5, 2017, a man would murder 26 innocents in Sutherland Springs, Texas and 2 days later I told Homer I had a memory and the rest of that story is in the blog…

Now my stroke happened when I was 14 on Japan and yes, you will always have some weakness from a stroke, but this was different and until I heard about the fistula, I thought, old stroke and now?????

I think it was the fistula thing… You see, when I had that surgery in Feb, I told the gas passer, I am a light weight with this junk, so don’t put me under heavy, even though it was a major surgery, I knew, I wouldn’t feel a thing and Dr. Yee, she was the best surgeon I ever had other than Dr. Blake at Yokota AFB…

So home I am and doing life and things aren’t working the way they should and that’s when I knew I had a stroke in the past, but my symptoms, were a lot more confusing, so I grab a bowl of that Hawaii pot and forget it and shelve it till needed…

It’s needed….

The blood pressure change, the vision changes and other things that have gone on since around 2010, have gotten worse and no one found anything…

Not the MRA they did, so they could avoid the Fiesta or CTs or anything showed what is going on…

Buy my body does…

So I am balancing using pot, so I can eat and keep my brain clear and not fogged in for ever and push for these tests and put at least a $1,000 aside for the special scans the VA won’t do, because that multi million dollar reno at the Biloxi VA is more important than protecting veterans lives, I know, I am one of them…

UGH!!! Do you realize, not only do I have to juggle my diet, but now Homer’s has been impacted by my diet and I have to juggle trying to stay healthy so that Homer doesn’t end up in a facility…

I HATE THE VETERANS ADMINISTRATION!!!!!!!!!!!

All these headaches, and balance issues and dizzy and everything I am living with, is probably a fistula… Why??? Because that is what ruptured on Japan in 1968 that stopped all the abuse in that christian home…

My life saved theirs and they steal my inheritance, yep, christians….

So each day, I will remind Homer, if you find me unconcious, don’t hesitate, call 911, because this time, no guarantee I’ll come back… I had a huge reason on Japan to fight to survive…

Revenge…

I am a little tired and 57 years older… Now I have to fight to stay here for Homer too…

Enough doom and gloom…

Enjoy your day, I am following a plan that will keep me alive and hope I have no major issues before we find out the answers…

I remember