I remember going back and looking at my report cards, that, for some reason, Freda kept, but I didn’t see many of my other 6 siblings records and that set off my spider senses… and I asked myself… WHY???

Like everything with this blog, it all goes back to the memory trigger of 26 innocents murdered on November 5th, 2017… see my first 30 blogs…

Since that day… Remembering and getting answers have been in two very diametric directions…

As a child I learned by the time the first near death happened at 8 years old… Don’t bother asking why this hurts or that hurts, it was always the same answer…”Growing”… when in reality…

I was living with a central spinal cord injury from toddler age, via Freda, blunt force trauma fractures from the TV beating and the boob incident, that was near death #1… but between you and me… that near death crap… not buying it… I was dead… all via Freda…

I didn’t see family, hear song or visit any god… I was flat out gone… Till someone started slapping my face and screaming at me… Yea Freda was one hell of a christian…

Whats this write about???

Giving into what used to shut me down, doesn’t happen like it used too … I usually take care of the headache before me and move on… Didn’t used too…

Oh hell no, I would let a software glitch go on for months and I knew it would take me less than 5 minutes to fix it… Same with my screw up with this site and it’s app… I deleted it, thinking I could use my bookmark and nope, you gotta jump through hoops to share posts…

Oh well… Can ya tell, not too concerned…

Yea, that Arkansas court clerk screaming at me and my subsequent fight or flight blow out for weeks… Thanks bitch… You let me, let go of my last baggage…

Now, yea, I’m being lazy, why??? Because I am tired after 6 trips up on top of that 5th wheel 14 feet off the ground, and this body is telling me… You still got hips and they hurt…

I got it done and I almost solved the electrical, I almost remembered in my dreams about the dead wire… neighbor is getting hit up… Lights and fan on same line, yea, I missed a step…

Have a wonderful day, I intend to be lazy…

I remember…

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