EPI Deficiency 67 years and counting….

Internet is wonky, so heads up… I’ll be shutting down after this post…

The deficiency is real and last night, I got a repeat performance and between you and me… I’ll skip the curtain call tonight if I can…

Yesterday my diet was a big Honeycrisp apple, 1/4 ounce cheddar slice and 8 ritz crackers… Nothing but water as a chaser…

Supper was veggie pizza, with light sauce, mozzerella and a nice romaine salad with ceasar dressing and the only thing not low fat, the dressing…

I ate no meat yesterday and by bed time, I didn’t feel half bad, tired, but not much gut pain… That all changed at midnight, like the golden hour for some frigging reason!!!

3 nights in a row and I have not taken anything for my digestive system and 3 nights in a row, it was bad… and last night I got a memory flash from my youth…

After the TV interview beating I instantly had throwing up issues, I did it frequently, I had lots of gut pain and back pain and I had never ending Diarrhea and now you get why the Olive Oil nickname…

***I am the little one and if you look, you can see I am bruised or have deformed body parts from my head to my feet…***

After this beating up till we moved to Alabama, I never kept much food in my body and that tells me, I had a pancreas injury and being only 5 years old, it’s not hard to injure at that age and Freda swung that stick with the force of an adult, you can see my arm has an indention, that is the area I have muscle damage, they found that in 23 and I have neuropathy in my whole body and compartment syndrome in my limbs… All from the beating above…

So by the time we move to Alabama and the first near death event over the boobs, I was in loossey goosey bowel mode….

After that beating and strangulation at 8, that changed to constipation and that’s when I started getting into the Ex-lax at night, to help my small body work…

That went on till the beating in Texas at 13 and near death #2 happened and Don got locked up on base and we got orders for Japan to cover up the scandal and they buried my medical records, because a doctor there, at Webb AFB, said I wouldn’t remember what happened and that was why Freda was expressionless when I told her of my child’s rape in her home as I sat in her kitchen in 2010… She thought I didn’t remember that event and I didn’t remember much, but I do now…

Yea it is real fortunate my birth family did what they did… because of this….

I have been trying to figure this out for decades and when I had times in my life, where the brain fog was minimal, I had children and they had kids and I had a birth family and I was being pulled in every direction, but the one I needed to be pulled…

So when I stepped out of the picture, I gave cameras, video cameras, emails, phone numbers, mailing address’s and virtually no one kept in touch, unless…

They wanted to use my brain…. Even in a fog, it is high functioning, just a little confused…

Now Don and Freda Bagwell are dead and the siblings stole the inheritance and they justified denying my right to be by either parent’s side, only because… Greed… Christians really are mentally ill…

So why the write???

Last night, 3 nights in a row of the body detoxing and I wake up this morning, tired, but absolutely no brain fatigue of any kind and most of all, for the first time in 67 years….

My gut doesn’t hurt more than a 2 on the pain scale and I haven’t known that number ever… I don’t need a pain med this morning… and my coffee, didn’t bother me one bit…

So a all veggie day yesterday, small piece of cheddar and a few ritz crackers, big apple and veggie pizza with salad and I don’t feel full or sick or anything… Just tired for loving on my throne in the middle of the night…

The VA got it wrong, civilian doctors got it wrong and military doctors got it wrong and ironic thing is… They all documented their arrogance… Don’t ya love stupid???

Today, trying oven barbecue chicken with wheat dinner rolls and squash and baked potato…

I have often wondered, if, when I was younger, was that tick around that caused meat allergy??? I don’t remember it being a part of the allergy testing in the military, so, I was a typical tom boy and had tick bites more than once is my memory… Yea, good question???

Anyhow, I doubt that is the culprit… I am betting it is the pancreas and until I get in to see the specialist, I will continue my experiment on food and avoid those things that seem to trigger the attacks and see how this goes…

So far, I am liking what is happening cognitively, but I only wish my spelling was better and my writing… also I woke up 2 pounds lighter and this pattern is very familiar… The most I dropped down too in my adult life is 118 pounds and Spokane VA freaked out and did a bunch of tests… They got frustrated and I lost faith in the system… circa 1998…

Have a wonderful day, we are enjoying the weather before El Nino dumps a wet fall and winter on us…

I remember…