She Can Fall Asleep Anywhere…?

Ya know as a military brat, I had fun… Not all of my life is rape and attempted murder ya know… I had fun and I imagine I had lots of that fun, I just don’t remember all of it… only bits and pieces… Key memories… Important clues….

Don was stationed in Colorado when he met Freda… Whirl wind romance and 3 months pregnant later, they get married… while in Colorado and another child is born, we are 2 years apart…

After Colorado they send us to Kansas and well, read the TV interview blog…..

Because of that beating after the TV interview… I started having all kinds of issues and being born with that crazy IQ, somehow, I knew what to do, because telling an adult, got me hit again, rarely was I taken to a doctor… Rarely…

Now after Kansas they ship us off to Alabama and that would be where Don’s traumatic brain injury started his “Sundowner’s”….

We are in Alabama for 4 years and Don gets shipped to Vietnam and Freda sells everything and takes us not to Colorado where her mom was at, but to Louisiana, where her boyfriend was at… (Big Springs Texas is connected to that baby)…

Now from Colorado to Kansas, to Alabama, to Texas… We were in the wheel house for seeing family and we saw lots of them as they all stayed around the area in Louisiana in Bonita, gatherings happened often…. BIG Gathering’s…

We left for Japan after the Big Spring, Texas event and I was 14 the last time my cousins saw me till we came back from Okinawa and I was 18…

Now why the write…. don’t ya love my back story….

We know I suffered injuries from age 1 to the 2nd near death in Texas… So I had been brutalized by Freda at 5 years old, then again at 8 years old and then Don beats me to death at 13….

Now you’ll understand this…

My cousin BillRay, at our granny’s funeral, circa 1987, I was on couch next to him and his wife and nodded off… I had been up 24 hours dealing with family, my aunt had issues…… and BillRay pipes and says this…

“She always could fall asleep anywhere”….

Well here we go with, he hadn’t seen me since I was a teenager and the only way he could know about the sleep issue??? He saw me after the beatings….

Like I said, we were a huge family, and when all, could get together, we did, lots of memories about that, they were good times….

So I have my witness to back up the sleep stuff that started after the beating at 5years old… She not only hit my body, but bitch slapped me in the car after we left the studio… Look at the blogs for the picture…

As for the vomitting issue, again I wrote about how I was so proud of hurling all over my dad in his Belair and that would have been right after the beating at 5 years old and that area near my spleen, there’s the explanation… This beating…

Homer and I have been together for 32 years and he knows, even If drunk, I will fight throwing my guts up…..

I went years without drinking and in the middle of the night or during the day, I would be loving on the throne, watching everything undigested come back up… It was always that way… Always…

I am thinking the last flare up, be it disease or injury, was probably very recent…

I went from 180 to 140 in a few months… No big exercising, no curtailing my diet and when it happened last year, I figured nothing, because it has happened my whole life, since that beating at 5 years old… I can remember back that weight loss happened very frequently…

So the CT scan in 2016 only shows the little stone and the aorta blockage, no surprise and the calcification near the spleen… Everything else was clean of issue, including the pancreas…

So if this is disease… The changes I made to my lifestyle as I walked this path of amnesia, were all the right choices to keep this from escalating to cancer…

Homer and I went from T-bone steaks and huge bake potatoes with the trimmings and fat, to lean and zero fat for me most the time and Homer likes what I cook…

More changes will come, now that I know this isn’t IBS… It never was…

Yea the hate for my parents has no limit, but I try hard not to let that hate for the dead dwell… I know in time, I will move on, because I really am getting the final pieces of the puzzle that no health care professional put together, but this uneducated woman did…

Another issue I found related to all this, my vision… After the beating at 14 and the stroke, my vision changed and has been a ongoing problem that they couldn’t answer… Now knowing about the Pancreas… The eye doc in Dec will have new info…

Have a awesome day, I am tired of thinking of all this and want to relax today…

I remember…