After the rape of my kid on base and the attempted murder, things in the Air Force changed for me…

I got to re-enlist for another 6 years and all of a sudden I am offered an assignment at Castle AFB and if you know California, rich as a E4 I was not and with 2 young boys, yea, I passed on the assignment…

Then things happened, almost like a setup and within 2 years of my re-enlistment, I was out of the Air Force on a Honorable discharge with a personality disorder, their term for PTSD….

While I was at Shepard AFB for evaluation and in the hospital, I was made to take a psych test, and it wasn’t a short test…

After that test, I asked the doctor??? ” Can you change your personality??” He said, not without trying real hard or it’s from trauma… (Yea, I knew what was happening, but I got answers for free)…

So I go back home and I get told I am being pushed out on a personality disorder and I decide, lets pay for that same psych test with a civilian doctor…

$175 later and in 1983, that was a lot, the test results were the same… And neither psychatrist or psychologist or doctor put 2 and 2 together for PTSD… Yep, college degrees really have little value if you don’t use the knowledge… No critical thinking on their part and why do I say that???

Brain fog…

I knew the difference by the time I got out of the Air Force in 83, that brain fog I was living with and getting stoned on pot, were not the same kind of brain impact and pot has never acted like the brain fog I have lived and I was on Japan for 4 years an yep, no pot…(shaved head, life in prison, no thanks)…

So we know the brain fog has been with me since my military service and thanks to those men trying to do a Epstein back in the 80’s, failed miserably…

When I paid for the private test, I went in high on POT and the reason I did that???

When at Shepard AFB, federal installation and was there for about a week, no pot of any kind when they gave me the same psych test I paid for…

Guess what???

The results were identical and I knew then… What I had was no personality disorder, it was some kind of trauma and PTSD was just coming to be known about that time…

Only took the VA till 2011, to make it official… Yea American medicine…

Because the test results were the same, I win… They loose and I am tired of thinking about all this…

I have spent my morning getting last colonoscopy results sent to the doc, making a list of tests that we can compare to that were done before the changes… If I cover all the bases, we will go into the tests phase with knowledge, disease or violence is the cause for the pancreas and large bowel to take on such dramatic changes in 10 years or less…

Wanna know when the fog in the brain started???

Sometime after the 2nd bleed on the brain after Don knocked me across the room on Okinawa… 55 years of it at least, probably life long if this pancreas thing is disease and not injury related…

Have a wonderful day, this machine is off line…

I remember…

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