The Puzzle is Almost Complete…

***She never deserved to be beaten to death but christians think otherwise…***

I say almost, because, no matter how much I do remember, I still have gaps in my memories from age 17 back to the first injury at 1 year old…

How many of you have memories of holidays or birthdays???

I have 1 memory of Christmas, 1 memory of Halloween and 1 memory of birthdays… Odd huh???

The christmas memory was about a game we got called MouseTrap and I kept beating everyone and no one wanted to play… (I lost all interests in playing games with other people, they didn’t like losing and I got tired of letting them make me feel guilty)…

Halloween, was Freda’s favorite holiday and she would make home made taffy, popcorn balls and candy apples and that ended in Alabama, because at some time during 63 to 67, razor blades were found in things handed out… From then on it was store bought…

Birthday’s, I only remember my 16th and that would have been at Johnson AFB, Japan in base housing before we moved to Okinawa and I declined the gifts Freda gave me…

The only other memory I have is Don sending me a birthday card after he had been sent to Japan after the Big Springs, Texas death event… Instead, we get to Japan and I piss off Freda and dumb ass beats me into a stroke…

So why the write???

The only puzzle pieces missing now??? Are the memories and those are very specific memories about Freda… and my sister…

Most everything else has fallen into place and I don’t have any questions or haunting feeling about missing memory…

I am proud of myself for sticking to my belief in myself and not allowing doctors to do more damage to a already damaged body…

We start off with spinal cord injury before age 1, via Freda… By age 5, I had blunt force trauma fractures all over my body and I had head trauma… by 8 years old, death would walk with me and by 13, I would see death again… All the while they continued the head and body trauma…

Don always called me skinny winney and for good reason… I always had trouble eating… and that started around the time of the TV interview beating and if you look at the picture… I am bruised from head to foot…

***I am the little one and if you look, you can see I am bruised or have deformed body parts from my head to my feet…***

Freda told me if I didn’t get in the above picture she would hit me again… Yea, it’s crazy the memories that stayed intact… I so want the ones that are missing…

So by the time the first near death happened, I was already having issues with eating and chewing and so my appointment yesterday with a oral surgeon who does reconstructive surgeries and he has me open my jaw and he goes wow, yea, she’s got no cartilage left in her TMJ and I said to him, it has been like this since I was a teenager… I brought it up to a dentist who did my dental surgery on Okinawa, I was 17 years old…

Getting that answer yesterday finally puts my diet, my oral pain and my neck pain in perspective… it so makes sense and not being a good candidate for implants, well I can live with that…

I just put my denture in before I sat to type and felt my sinus drain and I know from looking at my panorex yesterday, my sinus sits way to low and the implants done on Hawaii, should have had a sinus lift before the implants… and some bone grafts should have been done… Yea, I’ll pass…

I complained of sinunititus in the military and not one doctor could figure out why I had issues… No one ever sent me to see a oral surgeon… I had to beg for it at the VA a few weeks ago… To confirm my suspicions…

Our health care really is a disaster in America…

So I got no more medical questions and I have no need for anymore answers per my health…

Every thing and I mean everything I deal with today, is because Don and Freda Bagwell beat on a child and your tax dollars are paying for it…

Do I have a torte claim against the government… Yes, because it is in my military records they denied me care and discharged me to cover up rape and attempted murder at Vance AFB in 1980… Within 3 years I would be pushed out after my reenlistment… Men covering up rape isn’t new now is it???

So what happens now???

Well I am doing more research on how to give myself relief in my TMJ and I am going back over the PT I went through on Hawaii that taught me how to give my body relief…

I have a lot of bad habits to unlearn and good habits to put in place…

NSAIDS and tylenol and a few other mild meds will help and we are looking at quitting the medical pot, but I am taking it one day at a time and working on fixing things one day at a time…

We are ready for the hurricane… Our county will be on the back side of it and that’s always a dirty heavy rain event… I have been through a few hurricanes in my life time…

Have a wonderful day, stay safe…

I remember…