I wasn’t even a teenager the first time I was sexually assaulted by an adult…

Because of that assault, I ended up with what is called IC, interstatial cyctitis…

A painful condition that impacts the bladder and because of the bacteria created, you learn there will be many foods you can’t eat… ie, anything with lots of Vit C, like oranges or grapefruit and sour dough breads are off the menu, as are a great many other food products that irritate IC…

Not even a teenager and my life changed because an adult staff sargeant raped me while I was laying next to his kid… An you know where it happened???

Biloxi Mississippi and I came back here to live!!!!

Rape takes it’s toll on the victim and it makes being a surivior that much more fun, because, you always have someone trying to dominate you, be it your kids, your spouses, your grankids or strangers… Someone wants control of what you have!!!

YOU!!!!

Homer found out real fast after our wedding, don’t grab me like a piece of meat and think you can do as you please to my body….

He adapted to living in the real world of, I have my space and she has hers and what she has isn’t mine, nor what I have is hers…

RESPECT!!!

As Homer’s dementia developed, he changed and we had the conversation and we both accept the dementia is changing his brain, but it doesn’t change who I am…

He will be reminded of boundaries and at some point in time, those boundaries won’t exsist because of the disease… But the ability won’t exsist either…

The Jane Doe has been in my face, every time I turn on the TV and once the news is over, I put it on anything but any kind of news… Why???

I remember….

I remember every rape and every assault and I remember every person that touched me…

EVERY PERSON, including those officer’s that slipped me a drug infused cocktail… case in point why I remember those boys, because men, those officer’s will never be…

I had a flat tire when I woke up out of my drugged brain and as I dressed to leave that house, I saw the flat and yep, I made one of the rapist change the tire…

I didn’t know I had been raped, yet…

It would take me a few weeks to realize the pain in the areas of my body weren’t from anything I did while awake and as I put it together, everytime I ran into one of those officer’s going through training at the base, I smiled and let them know with my look…. “I know what you did”!!!

I did report the rapes and I was asked by a supervisor, “What I did to invite such behavior”??? This was 1978/79, time line on that hasn’t cleared yet, but my body never forgot, because I had corrective surgery because of that gang rape at Vance AFB…

Dominance and taking, is what men do…

They can’t do anything with integrity or ethics or morales, so men take and try and dominate their way through life and we are living a hell because of said stupidity that involves a god they made up…

Yea, this write just went in the toilet…. Have a wonderful day, we are getting loads of rain…

I remember…

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