Not a country western music fan, though I know a few old ones, the ones I would do for Karaoke… Patsy was a favorite…

My checkup is coming soon and so far the kid and I have said hi, refill this, oh jab me, blood sucker it is and have a nice day… that won’t change anytime soon…

For decades I had questions and for decades some doctors truly tried to get me those answers…

Then the memory trigger happens and well, November 5, 2017 will always be a part of my life as will the deaths of 26 innocents… My Texas memory trigger was this tragedy…

Once the VA did the MRI’s and I pushed for more answers and by 2021, I had no family, only christians…

Once the last tests were done in 2024, I still had questions, but I had a mental health journey to complete and that wouldn’t happen until this past summer and once again… I have no family, I have christians…

So why the write…

Once I put all the dots together and figured out why I have fractures, why I have nerve damage, why I have spinal cord injury, why I have multiple brain injuries, why I have internal injuries… ONCE…. all that came together this year… I started doing my research…

I have many documented diagnosis pertaining to those injuries I just mentioned… only a few have never been officially documented… one of those is my migraines, though after so many concussions before the age of 8 and then a moderate TBI at 13, followed by brain bleed number 1 at 14, with another to follow at 17… Yea… I would have freaked, if I had known, in fact, the MRI’s did freak me out and that wasn’t done until Dec 2019… There all the damage was, for all to see …….

I always suspected they were migraines, but I never heard anyone complain with what I deal with… Then I started asking eye doctors and I asked the neurologist after the MRIs… and yep, since I was a little kid, I have lived with them, without anything more than aspirin or tylenol… The screwy eye vision and kalidescope is the worse and it takes up to a couple hours for me to see clearly, so, imagine having cataracts ontop of that… Yea, I didn’t drive much during that time…

Then you throw in misalinged dental appliances and you have headaches on steroids and lots and lots of tylenol…

Still no call from the clinic to schedule an appt… They really don’t get paid much, not even as much as medicare would cover… The VA really screws private practice, but Trump needs a ballroom…

So that’s been my nights… Something stirring in the grey cells and that’s causing me to have them in the middle of the night… Gonna try taking tylenol before bed and hope, I get some sleep tonight… PTSD nightmares did me the same way… Always had a bad headache and that always made for a bitchy day… but hey as long as my bro gets compensated for my being beaten to death in front of him it’s all good… Right???

We live in a country of “Rape Culture”… I knew that the night the officers took their turn outside Vance AFB… huh boys, you weren’t men… 1979…

I remember… why that memory popped in??? Maybe one of those bastards crashed his plane…😈

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