Enjoying the morning, even though it is already hot and I told Homer, I am at a cross road on writing…

What needed to be resolved with my past… Happened because of the estate drama and the court clerk at Mena, court house…

Between her screaming at me and the family showing me the kind of people they really are…

There’s nothing left to resolve…

I know of every injury Don & Freda Bagwell gave to a toddler, till the last blow at 17 on Okinawa…

I know of all the dirty and underhanded behavior of my siblings…

I know all of them use man’s god, to do what they want, with no regard to the laws of our nation…

That’s corruption of christians and why I chose not to be a christian…

I believe in the constitution and our laws… and I believe in supporting and voting for laws… We have a long road ahead of us, as religion finds it’s place relegated to back rooms again… Corruption is what it is and nothing more…

As for writing, like I said several times… I am at that stage of working on the book a couple pages at a time, when life lets me sit with peace and quiet and with 3 young puppies and one that loves, absolutely loves to bark!!! Yea, it’s not that easy yet, they are only a year old… and we are teaching the pup, outside for barking… But time is what that takes…

Still no nightmares, no fatigue, no brain fog… Just regular body function except for the norovirus taking it’s time to leave me… but we are used to my gastro issue’s… We adapt… or I do…

To hot to be outside for long, nothing needs done but watering and staying cool till we start a cool down…

The blog, it really will take a hit… I am out of issue’s to figure out… I know all the injuries and I know all the causes and I know who did them…

I still don’t have those years that I lost, when the stroke on Japan hit at 14… and I am with neurology on that…

Chances are, I will never remember those memories I have been hunting for since the stroke…

At 72 years old, I was 14 when I lost those… They may be gone for good and that’s not a bad thing…

What I do remember and what I saw since leaving home, shows me the kind of people I am related to and it explains why so many cousins stepped away from the big family we belong too…

They all experienced what I did at various levels of abuse… Most of them are on face book, so I don’t have any contact with any family online, because I quit FB back in 19 I think… Never liked it…

When I am happy with what I wrote, then I will take and retire some of these blogs and change my format style to a book style… Publishing, not a big deal to me… Not about the money…

It’s about telling the truth… It is about being and becoming a survivor that christians are still trying to destroy…

Good luck with that😘

I remember…

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