I bet you are as tired as I am and we aren’t exactly living mirrored lives…

I am fatigued, because, I have never known not being fatigued… Strokes will do that to the body and brain and you learn and adapt, IF you know you had strokes… I didn’t find out for sure till 2019…. So from 1968 till 2019, I lived with strokes on the brain and knew nada… How come???

Amnesia…

That’s been a reall bugger of a headache lately… The fatigue started playing with the few memories I have always held onto and when that happens… It’s time to back off and let life do it’s thing and just live and not dwell and not worry about the depression that is pulling you down into the dark abyss…

This write is going to be a little on the weird, because there are a couple of thoughts whirling around and one of those thoughts has to do with pictures…

This picture with my dad, shows my face normal…

This picture shows one side of my face is different from the other…

As I stroll through the pictures from toddler age up to my senior picture… All show the same thing…

My right TMJ isn’t normal and in fact, when I saw the dentist on Okinawa at 17 years old, it actually was in place, but a short time later, Don would hit me upside the head and my jaw became permanently dislocated and I can yawn and lock it in place… and dentist always freak when I open my mouth and literally move my mandible with just flexing my jaw and the TMJ pops out of place… It can be a loud sound when it happens…

So what does this mean???

At some time between toddler years and before I am 8 years old, my face or head takes enough beating, it damages my TMJ and subsequent nerves, etc… and they did find my trigiminal nerve is damaged… Which can cause some hellish ear aches and boy that was not fun, figuring that one out… ENT saw me freqeuntly for a couple decades…

As you can see, the cross bite became a issue, all because Don hit me in the face a few weeks before this picture was taken…

This picture, taken before I had extensive dental work done shows the placement of my jaw and if you are aware and really pay attention, you can tell my TMJ is different…

What does this mean???

It means when I told myself the mantra as the stroke hit me on Japan at 14 years old was 100% dead on in my memory…

The abuse was so extensive, that when the stroke hit, and I had enough intelligence to know I was having a stroke, I knew, none and no one would be held accountable if I didn’t remember… so I started that mantra as the stroke hit…

Hairbrush

TV interview

Boob incident that would cost my brother his life

Baby born not of Don’s blood

Japan

I knew, If I didn’t remember those things, which I wrote about early on in the blog… If I didn’t remember…

They would get away with it…

But did they???

I remember…

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