We had only been on Japan a few weeks and as I walked in the door after a trek from the base library at Johnson AFB, Freda started yelling at me the minute I walked in and of course I had a comment for her screaming and the next thing I hear as I head down the hall of that Japanese housing at the base of the hill, I heard these words…

“Wait till your father gets home”…

I turned to her and smiled thinking, you touch me again and Don will be in jail and you will be on welfare and that smug look on my sister’s face will get smeared in the shit of religion she clings too and I just shrugged my shoulder’s…

We were on Japan, where the hell was I going to go in 1968??? I was 14 years old!!!!

Don walks in door and Freda is whining for all she is worth and sis, just stands there, grin on her face, hoping this time, death arrives and stays…

Don walks down the hall, taking off his 2 inch wide leather belt and he grabs my left arm and he starts swinging…

Me only a 100 pounds and Don a 6’4″ 280 pound man thought words were worth another death???

Yea, as I was whipped around like a rag doll, screaming for all I am worth, I crumpled and he let me go, I stumble to the bed and I hear it….

“Whoosh, Whoosh and a thunderclap that to this day, scares me when my head hurts and I started the mantra”…

Hairbrush

TV interview

Boobs

New Baby

Japan

Last thing I remembered, was waking up, freezing cold outside and how much time passed, your guess is as good as mine and I never was seen by a doctor… They covered up the crimes again, christians are the worse humans on this planet…

The next thing I know we are moved into base housing, my 16th birthday happens and you can read about that in the early part of the blog, that was pivotal to my memories…

We get shipped off to Okinawa by the end of the year and this is where I am still working on the time line, but it was after we moved into base housing at Naha and before we returned to the USA… Dons last blow to my head…

This is what I am fighting the VA for, a Fiesta scan of my brain, because if I have another bleed and they stonewall, I have already started the process to get legal help for Homer and he’ll be a very wealthy man… I prefer to be alive…

Because I have been having headaches for so long now and I didn’t always smoke medical pot, when I smoke a bowl now, so I can eat, I can feel where it’s having a issue in my brain and instant headache and that’s where the TBI area is and the brain bleeds…

Educating myself on what to do and not do and lots of the not do’s, I have incorporated in my life over the decades, because, doing the action always caused a problem, I just didn’t know I had a old fistula!!! But I did the smart thing and like now, that bowl got sat down, because the coffee and the pot do the same thing, constrict blood vessels and I’ll wait till the coffee wears off before smoking a bowl so I can eat…

It is a balancing act… But thanks to what ever I was born with, this inate ability to be so frigging aware has kept me alive since I was a toddler…

If a child can be born to play piano then a child can be born to have knowledge of medicine… I didn’t make the rules, I am just part of the evolutional chain…

I figure if Freda and Don hadn’t done so much damage to my brain, I would have made a good doctor, instead, I am happy I was instrumental in keeping a handful of people alive, because, they believed in me, when I didn’t believe in myself…

Not anymore… I trust me and never will trust health care in America again…

They cancelled my gastro doctor appointment at the Memorial facility here in Cedar Lake and set me up the next day with a NP so she could order the EPI tests and start me in the system for care…

Care will get dicey, with costs, lack of doctors and most of all, sicker patients…

I won’t have any answers until after Thanksgiving, in the mean time, I am sticking to a pancreas diet for the deficiency and as for the fistula, I have lived this since I was a little kid, nothing about my actions now will change, but diligence on warning signs…

Yesterday, we measured our food for dinner and we researched the potassium for Homer and the fat for me and I get up, and things float!!! There was virtually no fat in our dinner!!!!

That my friends is the pancreas and it has done that after I ate nothing with fat in it… and my body didn’t gain weight, it lost a couple pounds and I haven’t worked out for a couple days… Yep pancreas flare up…

Decades I lived that and never knew it was the pancreas… I do now… Just like the fistula…

Seriously the VA is hell bent on burying us, not keeping us alive… Republicans HATE VETERANS, OLD PEOPLE, LGBTQ AND DISABLED…. THEY TRULY HATE US, THEY THINK WE ARE FREELOADERS!!!!!

ANYONE SEEN MITCH????????????????????????

Have a wonderful day, we are finally cold, cold and it will be a inside day…

I remember…

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