I Gave Myself A Gift… Knowledge!!! edited😉😘😈

She never deserved to be beaten to death, but christians think otherwise… Christians beat this child till she died, more than once.. Those hand prints on my neck left damage to this day and my sister gave those marks to me, another christian that hates what she can’t control… ME!!!

Happy Sunday or just being happy to wake up and for me, I am happy my body decided it wanted to live another day and I hope it continues way into my 100’s…

This experiment I started after the ER visit in October has literally changed my life and to top it off, I am learning chemistry and actually understanding it…

The more I read about the food I consume and the more I understand how my injuries have played a part in my digestive system, I am just wow… Literally, I am wow!!!…

Am I back to a 100%???

No that will never happen, my body will never be what it should be, because of the first injury by Freda with damage to my central spinal cord before I was a year old…

So my life, this is all I have ever known…

Pain… 24/7 365 days a year, I have never known a day without some kind of pain and after seeing over a 100 doctors, I don’t have much faith in America’s health care anymore, if it wasn’t for Homer, I would have zero faith in them… (he actually has very good doctors)…

After the text from our NP about Homer on Friday and freaking out and after reading more about what he can or can’t have, I am right in the middle of a rock and a hard place…

I need a dietician that does Renal diets and Pancreas diets and those 2 diets, have some serious overlapping issues, or so I am learning through chemistry… (Really wish I had education, but wish isn’t going to make me learn, reading is, so I am reading everything I can)….

Understanding what I have lived with, since the beatings, just makes me hate those humans that hide behind a god, so they can rape, lie, steal, cheat, murder and my favorite, make rape immaculate…

Yea I have a great hate in my whole existence against those crazy morons…

That all being said… I got up one time last night… I stayed up past my normal time 2 nights in a row, hit the bed and was out… Up within a couple hours and last night, that was it, till I woke at 4:30 this morning… wide awake and refreshed and most of all, no pain in my gut… Just pressure letting me know, the bowels were doing the job without hiccupping me into a nightmare of pain…

It will really, all, be about discipline and sticking to my diet for my pancreas and watching that Homer doesn’t get to much potassium again… and as long as I don’t consume anything and I mean anything but water after supper, I have a good night… Because last night was a excellent one…

If I can get this routine down and functioning for me at a 100% before I see the gastro doctor, nothing she tells me will get me to change my routine…

I have lived this nightmare since the beating at 5 years old and after 67 years, college degree and license only means their knowledge is limited to their lifetime and mine is usually double what the age of the doctors I am seeing…

My knowledge is my super power…

Well, I had my first cup of coffee and no rejection or acid hate or nausea… So, I am hoping my 2nd and last cup will do the same… be inert…

We are finally having the cool weather and I love that window open at night… between our dogs and the neighbors big labs, I don’t worry about break ins… You wouldn’t have any ass left when the dogs got done with you… that’s a fact, I spoil the neighbors dogs with treats too…

As for the family drama… Coming across those emails yesterday when working in my office was a moment that I screamed and Homer came running from the other side of the house thinking I needed help… I was overjoyed I still had them…

Living with this brain fog, from what ever condition is ongoing is a nightmare in it’s self… and my memory is already a problem because of the moderate TBI on my right frontal lobe… So my memory, can hiccup and it does…

But those emails tell me, I kept other stuff, but, where I put it, your guess is as good as mine… We moved twice since those documents were done, I got stuff to still go through…

At least I have the documents to prove the elder abuse happened and that the youngest kids in the family raped Freda Bagwell until she was dead and she died broke…

They stole over a $100,000 from the woman in less than 10 years and they stole my inheritance…

Such nice christians my brothers and sisters are, very much like Trump… But then so are Homer’s, they stole the cash from him that his dad left him…

So christians will always be barred from our home, forever…

Yea I am a very happy camper… Between finding the documents about the elder abuse and the money, and proving what fake military members of my family are, as they became nothing more than thieves, liars, cheats, rapist and murders… and my kid and I got to experience all those mentioned in the Bagwell household in, Arkansas, can you tell the gloves are off???

Names and places and bring me your worthless lawsuits an I will have a banquet of justice waiting……

Well enough rant, ready for my 2nd cup of coffee and see if it sets off the acid in my stomach to burning and if so, then, I’ll be stopping at 1 cup from now on… I like this pain free gut that I have never had… EVER!!!

Have a wonderful day, we are finally cooling down, but no rain, so we are very very dry…

I remember…

If you wanna know if truth is being spoken, research courts😉🙊🙈🙉