To a child, their shadows are short, but when they look upon an adult, that shadow can become very big and very menacing…

Understanding mental illness, when you are only a year old is a wakeup to reality on a scale of going for a swim and not knowing how to swim, but somehow… You didn’t drown…

At one time, when the PTSD nightmares were so vivid I could have been watching them on TV in 4K… with full volume and even then, the actions of the adult made little or no sense…

By the time the TV interview at the Kansas station on a kids show, I knew, Freda was a wild card, but, being a child, I wanted what the next sister was getting, but it was never to be… Why???

Edeitic memory ability…

When the host ot the TV show asked my sister a question, she may have looked like she was 8 years old, but she was only barely 3 years old and I looked more like a 4 or 5 year old, which I was… It was before my 6th birthday and that interview would change my world for the rest of my life and 66 years later… The path has been a challenge…

Freda was so emabarrassed over what I told the whole TV audience, by the time we got in the car for the ride home, she was already slapping my head around…

Remember what I said… “FREDA WAS EMBARASSED”!!!!!

That beating above, would be assisted by someone, but hey, she’s a christian so her god forgive’s her for being a cunt… I don’t…

Then we move on to the 8 year old boob incident and again… It wasn’t us kids being embarassed, it was Freda and that’s when I got to see death up close and personal…

So why the write… We haven’t even got to the 2nd death yet…???

Something is moving around in my brain and when that happens, my thoughts can transverse 72 years of life and pick out a moment in time and play it back…

The neurologist wasn’t right about the ediectic memory… It’s still there, but nothing like the text books…

Books don’t live, humans do… Just keeping it real about what I am living and how text books tell me, the one who lived it, is wrong!!! Yea Trumpism is alive and well in doctors offices all over the world… and you can’t fix stupid of the college educated… It’s in a book… yea so is the bible trash… anyway…

As best I can tell, because it’s not a PTSD nightmare that I am seeing at night, it’s a memory…

Does this mean I am breaking through the barrier the brain bleeds created???

According to the science, a 50/50 shot on me remembering any of those memories I lost when Don beat me on Japan at 14 years old and caused the bleed…

It’s a little perturbing, I prefer sleep, especially after yesterday’s event with Homer getting dizzy…

So much I have to keep straight about him and not confuse it with anything else… So if a memory is waking up…

WAKE UP ALREADY!!!!!

That’s it… A weird thought is going through my head and I am more concerned about Homer than my thoughts right now, so, document like I always say, put it in ink… My short term memory is really bad, though I keep saying it is getting better, which it may be, but I still think it sucks…

I remember…

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