We moved to that little town in 03…. and one of the things I remember about living in that household up till 18… Hearing these words…

“Oh No You Aren’t”…

Any of us, including me in my 50’s wanted to do anything against what Freda wanted, she either issued that statement or you got the look and it meant…

“Screw with me and you won’t like my method’s”… (Yea I learned it from her, but I don’t play dirty, I use laws)…

Countless times I heard her make that statement from the time I could understand words and it always meant, you aren’t going against my way of doing things… Either do it my way or suffer and she could make you suffer, but it usually wasn’t painless…

When she pulled that on us as senior citizens, that got my attention and that is when I really started paying attention to her behavior and watching for a pattern and sure enough, there it was…

From my earliest memories at 1 year old to now… That was Freda’s way of keeping her world the way she wanted, regardless if it would hurt her in the end… She thought she could handle it… Her death says otherwise…

I am running out of things to put down…

Ever since the court clerk mess up, the brain has done it’s work and I have done mine and we are in agreement…

PTSD is under control and yea, you can take control, but keep in mind, I have had PTSD since the spinal cord injury at 1 year old… I have had decades of practice on what works and what doesn’t…

Truth and honesty and owning it, works…

Trying to sit down and write has been hard with Homer’s dementia, Lewy Body symptoms are more prevalent now and it is taking my time away from doing for me…

Last night he made coffee for this morning, but no water… That is minor, but, I have a $100,000 truck that we bought used in the driveway and it has so many bells and whistles that yesterday, check engine light came on and I have a DEF system and more cameras than a bank!!! This thing is a computer on steroids, then Homer tells me….

When we bought it, we took out the warranty that was recommended and it is good until we hit 150,000… That’s 40,000 miles away and honestly, can you imagine me doing long drives???

Yea, not happening… So the truck, I am keeping, it is warranted and I will never drive that many miles at this point in life… So a stupid buy, turns out to be a gift for me as the driver now…

We had people stop by and take flyers about the 5th wheel, so I have hope, we will sell it in a year or two…

Day will be a scorcher and we are getting work done early, as inside is likely our place during this heat wave…

Stay hydrated and cool if possible and don’t walk dogs on pavement during this heat and give them lots of water… Have a wonderful day…

I remember…

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