The story weaved a spell,,,

From which I asked for no escape….

It started out with chaos… and not understanding what I was seeing… I lost so much that night in Texas… my first 13 years of life gone, in one split second of anger…. all I lived, gone….

The memory making was sketchy at best, but memories I made… how sick the baby got on the plane… playing an running around barefoot, not aware, I had lost some sensation in my feet and they were starting to contract…. my birthday never celebrated that year and, the year before,,,,

I died….

Not aware of what had happened… I pissed off the vipers in the house and received what all christians do to children… abuse…. time lost once again and this time… I have balance issues… and my vision has changed…. (spinal cord injury, again)….

The parents freaked out and unaware I lost all memory, things changed for a short while and friend from high school who recently passed, told me things I didn’t remember…. about, my family dynamic….

On to Okinawa they send us and the 2 adult christians are slinging their mud at each other an I chime in and land 10 feet or so the other direction….

That is just the first 17 years of life and not including the sexual assaults before I even made it to 13…. by you got it… christians… same ones raping America, saying Mary’s conception was immaculate… rape is rape, no matter the label….

Yep, If I could just have some quiet here on Makuu street, I might get a book written, but that isn’t going to happen… so….

Time for a bowl….

Toodles…

Adorable Spite….

weird the thoughts I come up with huh??? well, you just imagine what it’s like up in here anyway… just saying…

She did it because she could…

When I look at the picture of my mother holding me as an infant… the look on her face is anything but paternal, maternal, loving, kind… nope… that look said it all and my body says the rest… and this is the woman who loves kids.???….

So many health issues that I have tried to figure out…

My last year in the Air Force I asked to be sent to a surgeon… I knew something was wrong and was denied… they were to intent on pushing me out, before the FBI was called in, which never happened…

So I took a day of leave and went to Fort Smith, Arkansas and saw my mothers OBGYN surgeon…. and he examined and said, it feels like you have scar tissue and I would recommend exploratory, in case the bowel is involved, because of the symptoms I was having…. this was 1983, the year I was discharged and the commander put it in writing denying me outside care… and yes I do have a copy of that letter by that moron officer….

By spring of 1984, I was in pain and went and saw the OBGYN surgeon at Yokota AFB, Japan… he popped a scope in my belly button, woke me up and said we going in for the big job….

The scar tissue were so massive, it had already strangled my small bowel and if it ruptured, my chance of survival, slim….

But because of the auto accident just before I got out of the military, I was in the throes of stenosis flare up… an rapidly forgot my past and that I could have gone after the Air Force for a change in my discharge from honorable to medical… an my ex, who used my identity, who knew all this, kept silent… and that marriage lasted until 1992, because it took that long for my brain to wake up and realize what an who had used me again… so much for love and honor… oh an the friends from the Air Force, about as good as what that young private got… trust is earned, not given, even in the military…

Anyhow….. bottom line… the surgeon on Japan, Dr. Blake, stated to me, that he had never seen that much scar tissue in someone with so few procedures…

When I brought this up to my sister… the game was a foot and she said, you imagined, nothing happened, yada, yada, yawn… on christians that are children of their man made god….

That lie got called out in Jan 2018, when she tried to shut down my blog… she and mommy don’t want people to know the kind of christian women they are…. hate to disappoint, but, people aren’t that stupid… con’s always give themselves away… always….

Men gave themselves away, when they called rape, immaculate conception and some of you yahoos, bought that lie, lock stock and barrel over niagara falls….

Bangers went by, worker for the HOA, isn’t that nice… Hawaiian bullies… Ho’onui…. yep, next time instead of calling them bastards… call them the Hawaii name… tourist trap… stay out, stay away, spend your money any place else…

Adorable Spite, lost all thought after the noise… I’ll never get the book done here… not possible… these people left their humanity for a fight with the white man while adopting it’s gods…. you can’t fix stupid….

The beating impacted my pregnancy….

Being pregnant the first time around, was anything but fun… I used to love oranges… Not after that pregnancy… I spent more time over the throne than anything else and no one could explain why… an my 2nd pregnancy… no morning sickness, now why is that….

The last blow to my head, Naha AFB, Okinawa 1971… my first pregnancy Nov 1973, delivered in Sept 74… my neck was still herniated….

The reason I say that… the Vagus nerve… I was talking with hubby about something and was bent, in the wrong position for my body and got a wave of a rolling tummy…. sat up and corrected my posture and took the pressure of the nerve running down to the stomach controls…. sigh….

That has been going on since before I was 6 years old… another confirmation, that the spinal cord injury happened as a toddler and repeated abuse, never gave me a chance to heal properly… which is why I can cause the problem myself, with just the wrong posture….

Have you any idea how long I have tried to figure this one question out… why I got sick to my stomach for absolutely no reason…..???? All because adults who hide behind a man made god, couldn’t be adults an should be rotting in prison…. one is, he’s six feet under… so glad I shed not one tear at his death….

Well, busy day, trying to get things moved around so we can be more organized, just in case they get to do my dental implants… this virus is the real boss… I’m just along for the ride…

Have a great day, wear a mask, social distance and ignore the snake oil and listen to the science…

Adorable Spite….

As for the young Army that was murdered… My heart hurts for her family… at least they got recognition… all I got was buried….

Sgt. USAF DAV

Military Coverup about rape an murder, not news…. you have to survive the christians in government cover ups!!!

As a child, I was beaten to death at Webb AFB, Big Springs, Texas… All the military did, cover up the crime an ship us to Japan were I was nearly killed again an attacked on Okinawa with one last blow to the brain….

1977 I went active duty at Vance AFB, Enid, OK…. 1980 my child was raped an nearly murdered on a federal installations an he was six years old!!!

What did the military do??? Protect the attacker an push me out without a medical board for spinal cord injury!!!!

I am a 100% service connected disabled veteran, only because I proved the Air Force lied!!!!

https://www.cnn.com/2020/07/05/us/vanessa-guillen-remains-identified/index.html

The remains of this soldier is old news…. My first taste of death was 1967 an the government an military go to great lengths to bury the truth!!!! Don’t they Trump??? Kavanaugh??? Graham???

SGT USAF DAV survivor of christians in our government!!!!

I wish…

Trump would go poof, just as the Covid 19 is going to go poof…

The mans puckered fat pasty lips …. give me nightmares….

I wish for the day when Trump is stripped of his presidency its legacy an wiped from the annals of all history….

But if they did that, we would lose the proof of what religion almost got away with…. deconstruction of our democracy an constitution….

Sgt USAF DAV…. Adorable Spite…..

ho’onui…. Hawaiian for bully…

Sad but true, religion corrupts all who buy into mans man made heaven an Trumpism an bullying alive an well on Hawaii island, Keaau, Makuu street…

Ho’onui…. a word that is easy to pronounce an use….

Aloha… that word has any meanings, but not anymore… now it just means tourist trap…

Adorable Spite, is staying here worth it??? yea, teasing the ho’onui will be interesting for me an beyond frustrating for the ho’onui….

Boom Boom just drove by ….

Nice an slow, reverberating bass vibrating our house an windows…

Laid back in the recliner on heat, hubby out doing his thing…

Boom Boom goes past an I wait for it to be gone, before exposure to the loud sound can impact my body….

Do you know how they destroy kidney stones or gall stones???

Do you know that vehicles are put together with screws an bolts???

Do you know what vibration in a confined space can do to the human body???? Let alone a machine??? Vehicles are machines….

If you know the answer to those questions, you probably do not waste money on sound systems for your vehicles worth a months rent???!!! Right???

You can’t fix stupid stupid has to want to be fixed…..

So, as for BOOM BOOM BOOM…. Honestly, I got two years or less for implants an these children think they are smart enough to take on this ole woman…..

Well at least I won’t be boredπŸ˜ˆπŸ˜ˆπŸ˜ˆπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜ˆ….

Adorable Spite boom boom just showed how stupid they be, an America Funniest Home Video could happen on our street that has zero aloha Makuu street, Keaau, Hawaii…..

Ancestry….

Being the 4th of July and I gots so much ancestry….

Let me put it this way… All I knew when I started researching my family history was the crazy stories my mother told and what ever documents she and dad had… that’s it… I got nothing from them on information that was solid….

Well not anymore…

I have presidents, vice presidents, govenors, senators, representatives, police, fire, doctors, lawyers, nurses, military up the ying yang… and over 60% originated on American soil….

Some were on the Mayflower, those are related, but not direct descendant… the first woman to marry on American soil an have a baby… that is my link to pilgrims… and it just grows from there…

People spread out and some stayed close… Virginia is peppered with the graves of my forefathers… as are many other original colony states…. just wow, on that heritage…

I was sitting here, looking at all the royalty, all the way back to early AD with the Holy Roman Emperor… and my family line is there…

Ya know I can buy the American line… but the royalty, if it’s verified as true… it would explain the bat shit crazy in the family….

The pandemic changed nothing for me… I’ve been a prisoner of my home for a very long time, trying to get doctors to give me answers… now I’m finally getting them… because of me, not them…

An I watch as Trump and his christian base try to do what Hitler did, tear a nation apart, so that we massacre each other… Tribes and Hawaii would have no problem with that… they would get what was theirs back to begin with…

It’s still a shock, that I am descended from such great and awful people… who had no problem owning another human being and what is sad… that is still happening in the 21st century, because of evangelicals and the like minded christians…

The fastest way to destroy a nation like America… Let a deep state like religion take hold and what you see is exactly what you get… Biden isn’t any better, but at least his sanity isn’t too questionable… okay he believes in gods, but after 4 years of Trump…I’ll take Biden any day….

Sgt. USAF DAV I remember

March 22, 2019… Zip Line…

Uh, I think we have a Eureka moment!!!!

When my friends daughter came for a weeks visit, we took her on a couple adventures… one was swim with dolphins at the Kona resort, which is the eco friendly way to swim with dolphins if you want to do that… reasonable price for one person was, gosh about $300 a little more, don’t really remember…. but we also went Zip line and that was reasonable with cameras for her and me, I think about $200 and it was fun and interesting…

Anyhow, eureka moment….

I think we were taking her to the airport and we were still up in the hills when it hit… and it was a direct result of me, thinking I be young and go zip line…. triggered a flare up of the stenosis… something that has happened many many times and now I got to figure out what the trigger was for the other moments this happened….

So, the poor kid, may have had some empathy for me… but It was a familiar event… and now that I look back on it… every time I messed with my body and put it in situations that were not, oh so smart…. like saving my kids ass in Japan…

I paid… I paid with a flair up of stenosis and that has been happening since before Texas, before I ever made it to teenager… so no doubt, the initial spinal cord injury, was most likely shaken baby syndrome, followed by repeated abuse…. and a couple of my own stupid actions…. going in the military is one of those, but, boy did I have fun….

So, eureka…. stenosis flare ups are what my body does when it melts down and sometimes that means losing body function like I did for 25 plus hours oh not so long ago, in this blog….

Damn, triple damn, goddamn mother f…………. bitch… all my mother ever had to do was tell me what they did to me, so I could have a decent life….

I mentioned I laughed when they said they wouldn’t turn down a millionaire…

I did!!! Money does not buy happiness, it buys a lot of headaches!!!

Thanks mommy dearest for showing me how much of a christian like Trump you have always been….

Adorable Spite…. if you just read a piece here and there… you’ll know no more then, than you do now….

Mystify or Justify???

Ya know… I’m sore… my right hip reminds me of saving my son’s life in the river on Japan… 3 adults died hours later in that same water… it was that swift…

Mile walk done and the house is closed up… humidity and heat… ugh… one thing I really don’t like and what do I do??? Move to an area on this island, where it’s total jungle… and humid… but it’s Hawaii… not anymore, it’s more Americanized now than it was in the 80’s when I was here… No, Hawaii is a commercial tourist trap… and I never liked tourist traps… oh and I found spell check on this app… so, yep, brain fog is clearing up, because I remember where that is in the app…. big long sigh on that one….

Confabing with anyone and it’s not going to like my made up words (spell check that is), but christians made up heaven and hell, so I guess confabing can be my voodoo word…

Anyhow, they justified their actions… ya know, when I justify something, I have to stop, evaluate, what am I justifying my actions or thoughts or beliefs or am I trying to convince you of something I strongly represent????

Justification without representation is no different than saying all Lives matter, but refusing to say Black lives matter…. it boils down to religion….

When you justify, without representing a valid reason… you are doing what christians have done for centuries… avoid responsibility for your actions and choices and throwing humanity to the curb… just so you can ….

Justify your actions….

Told hubby, that we have 9 distinct climate zones on this island and that no matter where we move to, bangers will be part of the make up of society, because bullying will always go on as long as they have the excuse to justify their actions and that means religion or religious morons to live among…

So what do we do??? We got no clue…

For now, the VA has all the say, once the implant process starts, their is no turning back and the hedge along the road will be high enough, that you’ll have to be in a tonka toy going down the road… (won’t be any quieter), but they won’t see me bare my ass as they go by either… now that is a thought… because it be one bright white ass… though I did sun burn it once, so age spots may be appearing… okay, enough giggles….

Bottom line, the VA and the Virus is dictating our lives and all I can do is hope that our children grow and in the process learn and grow some balls and own their lives…. I gave life, to 2 of them… I had some influence on the other one, maybe not all that good either, she acts crazier than me, well maybe….

So, sit back enjoy the ride and watch how they handle what is coming… because in all truth, I still think they have their heads buried in the sand… My freezer is full, but not packed full, it’s about to be, when I go see the surgeon again and my dry goods, will be so supplied, that we can go a year, without stepping foot in a store for them….

Nope, we will just need our perishables and some of those have a dry back up….

I hope with all I am, that the numbers are wrong… but numbers, they don’t lie… just like with DNA… the science will always win out over the bull shit face book promotes and twitter indulges and tik tok exploits…. no, I honestly don’t think our kids or theirs are anyway prepared for what is coming…

Enough of doom and gloom, you can’t change what is going to be and what is going to be is going to happen, because America bought into social media and mans bibles and not the Science that saves them in the hospitals…

You can’t have it both ways, god or science and right now, the only thing saving your sorry christian ass’s is …. Science...

Adorable Spite… watching the show an expecting exactly what you set in motion… disaster…

Never had IQ testing….

This is a memory I have struggled to confirm and when I can not get a memory to solidify… I have to let it go… and most the time when I do that…. it never bothers me again… this one, is different…

I told hubby, I remember getting #2 son tested for ADHD and that I hired my adopted sis to tutor him after we got the results… this was while we lived on Japan… I never had myself or my other son tested…

The only time my IQ was evaluated… El Paso VA 2010/11… have to dig for the file and see the date… and he was the only shrink to document what I had an put in writing, “Above Average Intelligence”…. I am pretty sure he was the shrink murdered by a patient a couple years before we moved to Hawaii… still sorting out timelines…

So… what this means… my memories on Japan are clearing up… now will I figure it all out… probably not… that fall on Japan, when I jammed my head back and injured the spinal cord, between that and that avian flu that hit hard and killed many… those exact memories may never fully recover… I had a 104 fever for a few days, that flu is what pushed me to get flu shots… Haven’t missed one since….

Anyhow… so no clue what my IQ really is… just that a shrink tested me and his conclusion is what I just wrote… no numbers, oh an he said I had PTSD… which at that time, I hadn’t heard about before… so even at that time, I was having cognitive memory issues….

Exercise… damn, I hate exercise… my right wrist is on fire, my left elbow won’t let me put pressure on it, my back feels like it’s growing hair when I tense muscles I never knew I had and my arms are starting to get a bulge, I haven’t seen, since my military days…

Great granma bikini body here I come… oh what a thought….

Owning the truth is more important than any number someone places on my intelligence… knowing what I have lived with since childhood and how wrong the doctors and all involved got it…

Lets put it this way, any ONE who tries to pin these issues on aging… better know how to duck… I’ve had my fill of stupidity… these issues have been with me since my first memories and those memories go back to the age of 1 year old..…!!!!!

Okay rant over… my eye check up, my perscription changed in less than 9 months… so back for a check up in 6 months…. finally someone is listening and this next MRI may or may not explain what is happening with my vision… it’s been going on since the beating on Japan in 68 at 14 years old…

AC on all night, which I hate, so today, no AC, dogs will just have to cope with stupid setting off fireworks… getting up to go pee last night… didn’t happen, I had dogs on my side of the bed on the floor…. I hate fireworks….

More memories are opening up and it feels like I’m getting back to where I was before El Paso VA operated on my leg… filling in the blanks…

Day started, work out to do and stuff to put in the shed hubby finished… 2 more to move and house to empty some… yea…

Have a good one, stay safe, wear masks and take time to look at the stars, the birth of humanity….

Adorable Spite….

Face Book an Twitter are Christian corrupt platforms…

apnews.com/ca8c15794c65b1ae8e176deb9be5d718

You insisting on the fantasy world, that does not include us?????!!!!!

Just that simple… The longer you stay on corrupt christian platforms…. the longer our physical separation will be….

Funny I already faced death a couple times, I know what waits me in the end, do you??? Life is fleeting, time precious an memories made for a lifetime, tossed in the garbage just so you can live to support face book…an placate us…

Lol, we know exactly our worth to you….

You are still on these corrupt christian platforms an prefer fake christians in your life an not us…

We are okay with that, we know reality, we know death, we both faced it an survived death….

Which is why we asked you to give up mans man made gods an its corruption, yet here you are still on the religious platforms you profess not to believe….

Not from what we see… we see you more afraid of life an inviting the death an corruption of christianity into your world while tossing us to the curb….

Always about choice an so far hubby is refusing to move where I would prefer… Okanogan county is looking more like a pipe dream….

Life is about choices… Live life free of mans influence an corruption of religion designed to control you or live with an among humanity…. Always comes down to choices….

Adorable Spite…..

America slumbers ….

The day drawing to a close in different parts of the world… America slumbers with restlessness…..trying to forget her woes… America slumbers this night…

The sky of night filled so bright, stars twinkling in the twilight… A boom a bang a cheer was rang, before America slumbers tonight….

The sky filled with colors, sparkles drawn by an artist of the bomb, ohs an ahs, we hear them sing, just before America slumbers once again ….

The sounds reverberated around the nation upon this night, led by a man who is not so bright… He wheels an deals for his nightly grin, knowing a bounty is upon this our kin…. America slumbers on this night…

The smoke filled air the nod here an there, the crowd slowly drifts away wondering how America will slumber this night…. so many afraid that roof over their head will be gone this time next month…

How will America slumber those nights???….

Have a safe holiday an know your freedoms came upon the backs of our ancestors…. from all ethnic background, religion, color an sex… we are stronger together… Do not let Trump an his deep state christians destroy our democracy…..

Adorable Spite

SGT USAF DAV

Neuro net overload… took me out…

For the longest time, since the Japan beating in 1968… the fatigue part of this nightmare had me spooked… I thought for sure narcolepsy was the culprit… but I didn’t meet the profile…

I do meet the profile for Cervical and spinal stenosis and have meet that profile since I was a teenager…

So today, making up dinner and it hit me hard…

It knocked me out for about a half hour… more like a power nap, but something that is becoming noticeable that gets triggered by me standing too much… which explains so much from the years and not being able to take standing for long periods… never have been able too… that tells ya spinal cord injury was very early on….

I’m getting it, the more I try to understand what has been happening because christians beat upon a child…. yep their legacy is branded into my skin… my foot is ready for their ass too… just saying…

So hubby gets it and I get it and this isn’t the way I plan to live… so I’m hoping as the exercise part takes and builds more muscle, I can find an even balance so that I’m not always hiding at home… long road ahead… long road… damn I thought I just finished one too!!!

The more I read about my kind of injury, no guarantee anything will be on the MRI, which is what you want… for them to see nothing… so fingers crossed this is more about the neck and it’s long herniation problem and nothing more serious….

Hot out side… AC on, quiet indoors… hubby almost done with the big shed… I really hope no fireworks… 100 pounds of dog on my lap tonight is not my idea of fun….

Toodles…

Adorable Spite…

Scream… oh boy did I… giggle…

In the military it helps to have a voice that will carry and doing Honor Guard, it helped to be heard over noise during a service, some graveyards are next to highways……. that being said… the banger, the bully, could hear me over his boom boom boom… giggle it was fun….

But that’s not why I sat down to write… it happened as I was preparing the food for tempura dinner tonight and tomorrow…

I was finished preparing the food for both nights and was cleaning up and by this time, I had been standing at least a half hour… not a good idea when you have spinal and cervical stenosis….

The heat crawled up my neck into my head and that was when I noticed my posture… the standing had been to long of a time and the body was literally folding and I pinched the vein and nerves in my spinal cord… the wave of nausea and heat and feeling of extreme fatigue, hit all at once….

I recognized what was happening and finished my clean up and came in here to document it… those few minutes the heat disappeared, because I’m sitting here in proper form and it’s killing me… pain pill taken a while ago…

I can remember these symptoms back to very young age, can I pin the age down… at least at the age of 5, likely sometime before that age, when the original spinal cord injury happened… like I said, seeing memories from the perspective of a toddler, not that easy… at that age, I imprinted my surroundings and the person doing the abuse… and mostly the form of abuse…

How I served in the military and had 2 brats that are as ungrateful as this nation is… total and completely through my mind… I never let any of them defeat me or own me… just that simple… an it’s very obvious none of them know me… at all…

Well, time for a break… that wasn’t fun, what just happened, but it is a reminder, it’s gone on for at least 61 years, maybe longer….

Adorable Spite….

Fake Aloha Cancelled, Cops called…

Ya know, I spent time on Hawaii before and what I saw in the 80’s should have warned me about what we are dealing with now… a lot of assholes who fake Aloha…

The property across from us was foreclosed on before the pandemic thing happened… but like all things, it got delayed, but the people living at the property have moved and some yahoos we don’t know are staying there, no power… so we got a feeling, it’s illegal….

Today they decided to crank the funky sound system they got, terrible bass, could hear the crackling… anyhow, they didn’t want to keep it down so we didn’t have to listen and the cops got called and I tell ya, they were here fast… so…

No more nice people… We aren’t interested in making friends, lived here 4 years and haven’t bothered, don’t intend to now… so cops are definitely going to get to know us… and that is a fact…

By the time the cop did get to the property, they had pulled the vehicle inside, closed the tall gates covered in material and went silent… Cop set outside the gate for a few an left… just to let them know… the jig is up….

As for the road bangers… honest, Hawaii is beautiful, but not the people… it’s sad a small few make life miserable for the rest….

Gee that sounded like Trump and his GOP deep state evangelicals…

Adorable Spite… staying closed up AC on to drown out the noise of Aloha that never was….

100% AF DAV an took Ten years to get major surgery…..

www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-53292585

Trump wants glorification that rape is immaculate an doing that to America is the same as raping Mary or you or me….

When do we stop the corruption of christians, GOP an Trumps deep state…!???

Ten years to get major surgery because the VA system is that corrupt an polluted with christians who hide behind the god an murder veterans…

Doubt me??? You haven’t been in the real world, because Trump did that to veterans this year…he experimented on them to prove a point that he has zero education on…

The only deep state in America… Christians destroying our Democracy….

Adorable Spite….

SGT USAF DAV

The conundrum….

Beyond painful, when my neck is forward and it makes my head feel like it weighs 50 pounds, an no humans head weighs that much… no matter how much bull shit they spread around…

I’m getting it though… I’ve played with the Word Press App and actually retained the information, instead of it floating off to never never land… and I do enough of that because of pot… oh pot, enjoy while I can, soon to be done forever… why??? Dental implants and I know the dangers of smoke and bone healing… and I really don’t want to do this ever again… so, when the surgeries start… I’ll be straight from here on out… oh joy…

What I am figuring out, now that I know I had spinal cord injuries… just wow Freda, you really are the devil in disguise… and Don, he was just your tool…..

Anyhow, what I am figuring out, something inside the neck that brings blood, oxygen and signals… is still pinched or something… we are getting into neuro science that I didn’t read about… I never had spinal cord injury in my radar… Everything else… but not spinal cord…

I knew when I tried the experiment with the other hosting web site, if I failed to be able to handle it… it was more than just TBI and Stroke and a few weeks after that spectacular failure… The MRI shows the herniated disc in my neck…. all 3 of them….

Now since they went back in place and PT has felt and checked and they agree, they went back in place, that relieved some of the confusion and brain farts I kept having and it took the edge off the emotional side…. and paranoia…

Charter internet is the worse, keep losing signal, damn RINGs will need to be redone… so ready for steady internet and reliable TV… so ready…

I did my exercise on the new device and I have been feeling a big difference in my neck an back shoulder muscles… but my neck feels so wobbly… like a rag doll… thanks mommy….

MRI in a couple weeks and teleconference with the doctor, so I don’t have to be exposed, because of the dental surgeries coming up… I’ll be home, except for appointments and hubby, he’s the road runner….

But maybe he can shed some light on this, because I really feel over whelmed, when I read about the brain stem and injuries… It makes sense that is the culprit… and has been since at least 5 years old or younger…

But wow, so much to understand and comprehend….I’ll get it done… It’s just going to take me some time…

As far as the foot drop….My first memory was it happened on Japan, before the beating… So I got to connect that brain injury and spinal cord injury to Texas, Big Springs 1967/68… I still had bruises in June of 68…

But the foot thing… I was doing it when we got here, but I wasn’t doing it before El Paso VA operated on my leg… so, yep, Biden becomes president, I’ll be working on my best IG complaint ever… I plan for that complaint to get more than just received… I plan to publish it here on the blog… oh dear… that means I need to keep this blog…. I just trapped myself…. holey moley….

Time to go move the platform for the big shed and start getting the house ready for me to be down… I am curious about the treatment plan… since I am the patient…

Hot, muggy, fireworks last night after midnight and the dogs woke me up… Tonight, I think we might be closed up AC on …. or it could just rain like all get out and put a kabosh on fireworks….

Aloha… ya know, how about…. maybe I’ll write something funny and stupid later…

Adorable Spite…

No ALOHA on Hawaii Island…

WE have asked, we have requested and we have threatened and we find aloha is a myth…

It’s been one banger after the other and taking pictures, setting off the alarm and yelling at them they are assholes an bullies and they just crank the noise louder….

So If you are looking for a place to vacation… go any place but Hawaii…

Our homeless population is ridiculous, our drug population is high and our crime are rising… all because ….

Bullying is alive and well on the islands of Hawaii… What happens on this island is 10 times worse on Oahu… Maui & Kaui have the same issues too…

So, looking for Aloha that you don’t have to pay for….

Go to the islands that are not called Hawaii… honest, you will waste money here, when you can get better and cheaper and quieter than Hawaii…

Aloha, just words they use to con you into spending money on the islands… going on 5 years living here and it’s not getting better, the bullies are getting more violent…

Aloha, never has been and never will be, why, because of white man’s gods and superstitions…. an these people bought that crap lock stock and barrel…

Adorable Spite…

Striking a balance….

Between the doers and the fakers… you either strike a balance and allow them into your world or you keep them on the outside looking in and give up that dream of striking a balance….

When hubby’s dad went through a divorce a couple years after we married… oh boy… we were renting his extra house, his RV was parked in our yard, but he wanted to retrieve belongings and needed someone to go with and be a witness, I got roped into it and I’ll never do it again and that should explain why neither hubby or I will get drawn into playing with the fakers in life… not worth it…

When hubby’s dad got remarried, I offered to pay for the trip to be at the wedding and hubby declined… we would meet the lady eventually… and when we did, the first thing I told hubby, she is a nurturer…. not knowing she had a degree in Mental health…

Hubby’s mom was in the hospital and again I was judged by hubby’s actions… so I give up… you yahoos can judge till your fictional hell freezes over…. Uncle…

My point of the write…. If you fake it, we are going to know and if hubby miss’s it, I let him catch up on his own… no need for brainwashing in our house, either you acknowledge it or you ignore it, with head up someones ass…

We as a people, human, can’t resist judging others, because we are so miserable with life… and frankly, that is exactly what I see, not sure about hubby… but it’s what I see…

Ya know we tried very hard with dad’s wife, not really knowing her or having any kind of real connection, but we treated her the way we wanted to be treated and that went down hill on a slippery slope so fast, our heads are still spinning… why??? Because she attached emotion to our actions….

She did, not us… she did…

It’s no different with hubby’s sibling… I read them long before we left Okanogan county an told hubby exactly what they would pull and low and behold they did exactly what I said they would… They stole… because they could…

Same goes for my family, our kids and grandkids… Emotionally we aren’t attached and that’s not from lack of me trying… but when they ignore the obvious, well I just bought sun glass’s to avoid the glaring contempt they have for us as elders…

No, we as a society are taught to believe the family is everything… and truly, that’s just a religious trap, so they have control over your whole family dynamic….

Yep, I may not have a degree in psychology, but brain washing is something so easy to pick out… that stick, keeping you at a distance, just became a 2X6…..

Social platforms are christian or religion based an as long as you are on them participate in them and decry us….

We will never be family…. just that simple… The red line has been drawn and the time has come to chose….

Face book and it’s corruption or us… Twitter and it’s degradation or us…. Tik Tok crossing over to the dark side or us….

It’s a simple choice… we chose us over the social media platforms…

There was a day, when communication meant something… now it’s how much can I lie and get away with it…

Fake is fake and we would appreciate, no more fake videos… If you can’t be who you are, we aren’t interested in the fake you on video….

Red pill, stay on the matrix of social media…

Blue pill, be part of our family and know it….

Mom, Grandma, Sister, Daughter, Veteran…..

Adorable Spite…