Subarachnoid hemmorhage what???

I’m beginning to get why the neuro doc is amused by me… I know nada… well kind of…

The one memory I keep going back to… Freda’s mother has just died and I am covered in bruises… and I don’t make any memories again, until I babysit for someone an take that money to buy groceries, because we were waiting for our plane tickets to Japan an money was tight, military pay back then was a joke… still is…

So…. drum roll, tom toms, something… this is what I think went down with all the other injuries… just kidding, I got chores to still do…

The Texas beating was the one I always went back to… the memory of the bruises, the baby born, not of Don’s blood and us going to Japan and Freda’s mom dying… I had lost about 9 months of my life and did I remember… well that is for the book… this is about the injury… the mystery…

The blow to the head was Texas, of that I’m sure of… now, when did the stroke happen??? I think that too was Texas… now because the bleed on my brain was in between the brain and the brain barrier, it left a stain on my brain… just like a ketchup stain… that stain… was the TBI and I have permanent memory loss, so it’s considered between a mild and moderate injury…

Do I think there has been more than one stroke… the more I get the way the head injury for that specific beating went down… I got to say, I doubt I have had any other strokes… Just the one and that was Big Springs, Texas 1967… at the hands of Don & Freda…

So why cognitive issues my whole life and why sometimes worse than others???

Neuropathy, Stenosis, & Myelopathy… all of which I have lived with since the first injury as a toddler… those nerves that control everything that we need to function in the world… have been on a joy ride for 66 years…

It will impair my thinking ability, it will impact my personality and it will impact my longevity… remember, I have Autonomic neuropathy, that means heart, lungs, bladder, kidneys, you name it… it has the control… an why I made life style changes for the last 20 plus years… still a work in progress…

The reason for the write… we been busy, getting the house set up, so we can work on it and be done so we can do other things, until my surgery… so no exercises… an I noticed after 3 days of not working out…

I had numbness in my left side and I had problems holding onto anything… kitchen was a knife act, you didn’t want to participate in… an some brain fog, because my neck is compressing…

The stroke, as best as I can figure out, with the MRI results and all the other test results… the stroke was a one time thing and that was in Texas at 13 years of age…

All the injuries before and after, were all to the spinal cord and just made the neuropathy and stenosis and myelopathy a permanent part of my life, before I was 18 years old…

Just wow, my hip hurts, where I hit the boulder in the river on Japan, when I saved my son’s sorry ass… I know that pain, I know why I have that pain…

I don’t know why I have the others….

Today was a good day on figuring out the storke… only 1 and it was in 1967…

What El Paso VA did, was herniate my neck and I had to have the VA doc give me steroids so I could drive to Washington from New Mexico 2 years after that incident on the operating table… and it took from my memories, by causing a host of other health issues… so done with VA death care…

Because of the one stroke, I will always be at high risk for another major event…

As for the nerve issues… if I do the work, I should reap the reward… I just have to make time for myself and do it…

Office all packed… now it’s wait for our road trip to Kona, my pre-op and shopping that day an wait for surgery… in the mean time, we hope to get the office floor done, before surgery, which is 2 weeks after pre-op… that will be a busy week…

We are enjoying nice weather, cool breezes, AC off… an house hunting… an hoping we do find a forever home… some place…

Margie, I remember…..

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