One door closes, another one opens….

If we had made different choices, when hubby had heart surgery… I wouldn’t be blogging right now and more than likely, would have mended many fences along the way… but… doors got closed at the other end and I attempted to open them and they have been securely locked from my entry…. another charm to hang on my bracelet, a key… to no where….

I could get sad about acceptance, but If I did that I wouldn’t be happy about how far I have traveled, since getting my memories back, an more appear daily, filling in the void that El Paso VA gave me, by nearly killing me Nov 2011… 9 years of hell, because of federal employees… 10 veterans have died at the VA facility in Hilo…. 10, died for no reason other than incompetence…

Acceptance is a good feeling… I accepted what my birth family did, I accepted that my sister is one twisted bitch and may her god have exactly the same amount of mercy she gave me… broken collar bone, strangle neck… little morbid, not the direction I had plan on this acceptance speech….

I accept life for what it is… I got my VA taken care of, my medical is on tract an I have doctors… We are established and the boys of the hood, know not to mess with this ole woman… she may have a tomahawk… ya never know…

Acceptance… our children have changed and not the people we thought we knew… doesn’t mean we love them any less, love is an easy emotion to evoke on any living thing… but like & respect… now we start playing some hard ball…

Now that we have had our heart to heart and truly have decided to stay here… we are moving forward with preparing to have the house ready for market by spring… just depends how much we can cram in the sheds, so I can stage the house and still live in it…. why???

Because we need to be on the market or ready for market, in case we find one we want to buy… we don’t go to market, till we have a property we made an offer on contingent on our sale… real estate 101… so, we have lots to do…

I got a lot of odds an ends packing… we have extra cabinets and stuff that need put in the shed… I need all the floor space in the office, so we can tear the master bedroom apart an paint, an that king bed, has to go some place, to small a room to paint around furniture… so we have much to do and I have surgeries to get done…

Should be fun and if nothing else… we won’t be bored…

No more bangers and they been by… guess telling them thanks for the rape don’t sit well… kind of why we are thinking of looking up on the mountain for a older home, but more land…

Once we list the house we are on contract and no backing down next time… it’s let go of this jewel and move on to the last jewel and much bigger home…

Hot in the office, time to shut down… have a good one, I going outside, where it’s cooler…

Adorable Spite… looking for her forever home of Aloha… I hope… home yea, aloha, not so much…

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