Heart to Heart…

Sometimes, you have to push to go for the jugular an a heart to heart conversation had to be had this morning with hubby….

We moved to Hawaii, so he could die here… but his heart decided it wanted to fight on and it’s been 5 years since the open heart surgery… he wants to continue to live and there in lies the problem…

We thought Hawaii would be temporary as he wasn’t expected to live this long, but all good things come to those who wait and his body decided other wise an because of that, we had spent time looking for a home on the mainland, and after a year of searching…

We are stopping… we are no longer looking for a property on the mainland….

We are staying on Hawaii… just not this neighborhood, an I just yelled at a banger… damn, I’m going to miss telling those assholes that I don’t appreciate them raping my home… I said no to the noise and they said fuck you… so rape it is…

Since we have no reality to move back too… we figure stay here, invest in a bigger house in a nicer neighborhood or just stay in this house and build equity an move to a condo, in our old age, some place… or die where we sit…

Regardless, I can’t rely on fantasy or gossip, when the time happens… I need a real person, facing real challenges and not living on social media… an when hubby heard the words, the fate was sealed…

So for the next couple months, we are going to explore the market here and see what we can get an do what is financially and realistic for us… because the real world is where we live… an we chose to stay in it…

Won’t know our decisions until we do the work… but if this is the path we take… by the time Christmas gets here… we will be packed, so the house can go on the market after the first of the year, because we found a house we want to buy…

First, we have to get out an explore and see, if that is what we want to do… we know, everyplace has a good area and bad area and grey area… we are in the grey at the moment, because of the volcanic eruption in 18… so, it’s coming up, but it takes time to build… is it worth it to me to stay put or invest in bigger, so that we can have company after this virus thing is done… or peeps get shots… but after what we have heard over things like shots, antifa, yada, yada, yawn…

Hogwarts won and reality loss…..

If nothing else, we are well established here, we do know people, we do know the island and we do know what to expect… now we just have to decide if this is the last place we lay our heads… it would mean no more planes for me… hubby has to go to Oahu to see the RA doc once a year… but me, I’ll never get on another plane… just that simple… and I can afford my health care living here… lots to think about and choices to make that will impact the rest of our lives…

Adorable Spite… resigned to reality and excited for the next step…

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