My last words….

I remember….

I wrote those words in the christmas card I sent to mother for christmas 2017…. 1 year later on the 26th of Dec 2018, I found out I had a stroke on the brain…

By that time, I had regained many of the memories I was missing, but something was off and not exactly right and I kept going back to the operating room at El Paso VA Nov 2011 an the memory plays out before me…

The surgeon, explaining to the surgical residents, the procedure being done and I caught the eye of one of the kids… an heard to my right, the 2 nurse anesthesiologist an got a moment of fear, then I got pissed an interrupted the two men arguing and telling them I wanted to wake up, a moment later as I felt the juice warm my arm, he yanked my head to the right and proceeded to herniate my neck… now did I have a stroke on that table???

Did they compress my spinal cord and veins an cause a stroke bleed on the brain??? Did El Paso VA cover up attempted murder or 2nd degree assault???

Yes… they did…

I am expecting the MRI report from Oregon by mail next week… long weekend, hopefully she found the report and mailed it out today… she was very nice at the Oregon VA…

Some answers to injuries I have, may never be explained… the collar bone is one of them… something about it, tugs at my memories, it just doesn’t want to jell into something I can fully see… it’s like that… repressed memories…

Other injuries, I know, I will never know what happened an Freda, good ole mommy, will take those secrets to her grave, even though, they could mean the difference between life and death…

It’s like the neurologist said, no reason to test, an you will continue to find old injuries that are new to you… he’s right… found one on my elbow, it happened in the barracks an the mark on the tissue of my elbow, indicates fracture… I just blew off the pain an ignored it, the fracture shows now, in my tissue, just like all the fractures from my childhood that Don & Freda gave me… they are very visible now.. the thinner I get, the more pronounced the injuries show up… an let themselves be known….

I still have many questions about my injuries and my mother wants to welcome me back into the family she pushed me out of… and my last words to her were in a christmas card I sent in Dec 2017….

I Remember….

I’m at peace with that an not having contact with the woman who’s character is just as rotten and sick as Trumps….

Neurology will be happy with this… I accept what is and like I said before…

I’m moving on….

6 Veterans have died at the Hilo VA facility… 6 lives that should have never been lost, because an employee took the virus in to them… it’s like you people think there are lots of us…

Do you know for the population of America, less than .5% of 1% out of hundreds of millions of Americans… are brave enough to wear that uniform and all you can do is worship a god that says rape is immaculate and support a president that is the devil incarnate…

Margie, I do remember…

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