I chose door #???

Game shows… not a big fan, we watch Press your luck this summer at night… it’s okay… but, not a big fan… I prefer American Ninja, Titan Games, which are okay and Tag… those I enjoy watching… or Jeopardy… go figure on that one…

The analogy has to do with aches an pains…

I can’t begin to count how many times I pointed to an area of pain an got a Gout test, or I had bone density scan or I had a ultra sound of my gall bladder (which was full of stones an I passed those in March 2016 at the ER) I would rather have another kid, than go through that again…

I’ve pointed at my head, I have made comments to the 2 dental surgeons, to the regular dentist, to the family doctor and to specialist… and you know what, none had or have a clue… why???

Because they are text book orientated and not patient orientated… I got from 1977 to now in federal medical records to back up my words…

I know, before the surgery at El Paso VA, my brain was waking up… I was remembering the abuse and when I stood in Freda’s kitchen in 2010 and told her I was missing memory… Sherlock Holmes would have been impressed with my deducing…

When El Paso VA herniated my neck Nov 2011, it started a cascade of problems, that in a way, helped me get my answers… how you say???

Because they made me mad… Just that easy an it is documented in my VA records how I suspected foul play and everything at El Paso, doubt if they would like that in writing now… some of it, just flat out, employees protecting their job and throwing this veteran under the bus that they used to run me over with….

I knew, when I got hubby tested in 2017… if something didn’t break… I mentally could, and I thought for sure a nervous breakdown was in my future, only one problem… I didn’t fit the profile for a breakdown… I did fit the profile for head injury and that is when I pushed for testing on myself… again… but this time was different…

In Spokane they sent me to Oregon to have a contrast MRI in 2000 we are pretty sure on that or 2001 and they were looking for what the last MRI looked for, but not blood, not vessel, not stroke…

In 2018, that MRI, ruled everything out, except TBI & stroke… Stroke was seen on the brain, the TBI, because of the case history and symptoms… I’m considered closed head TBI and central spinal cord injury…. an Freda knows and lied… to protect what, the VA money I got for her??? gag me please, I’m about to puke… thrown away for a man made god and money… now that is a true christian…

Anyhow… the guessing of why this hurt’s or why this headache or why this vision problem… those answers have been given…

I know why every part of my body hurts….

I know why I have headaches and sinus issues, related to my maxillary…

I know why I have vision issues in my left eye and the doctor will confirm that on my next appt in September…

Eliminating all the horrible things I could have had, an understanding all the horrible things christians did to a child…

Just makes sleeping at night a lot easier an a lil better sleep…. pain, still has a say about how much I get…

My shoulders are back were they belong, my ears are not being imprinted and I’m figuring out… family, sometimes you just got to close the door and never open Pandora’s box again… yea I wish… I’m not that lucky, Freda reached out… Debbie reached out, who the hell is next, that decided I wasn’t worth their time???

Yea, this does feel like I’m back to where I was before El Paso hurt me in Nov 2011… 9 years of hell, because federal employees aren’t any different from Trump….

Sgt. USAF DAV I remember… Margie…

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