I should be jumping for joy….

At one time, I read a lot of psychology… at one time.. now, it’s research and move on… but I use the tools I learned growing up in a violent house, filled with liars an abusers…

I’ve been awake, since the banger went by, around 1:30 this morning… crawled back in bed, an just day dreamed… yet, when I got out of bed… my shoulders were imprinting on my ears… so why am I bugged and what has me bugged…

Nothing really… the islands are under rules, an no clue if my surgeon is exempt, so, I seriously doubt my procedure will happen anytime in the next 60 days… so fall or winter, it will be, which is what I predicted last year, early on… I did the job, I know how it works…

While people drove by this morning, going by engine sound only… I hit the button 3 times and did that till, oh, about 20 mins ago… so I let those that like to bang in the dead of night… I know what you did last summer… bawaaaa… or however that works….

It is getting quieter and the minute I say that, all hell will break loose… our bad boys are honking the horn, every time they drive by… so, we’ll just let the cops pay them another visit… they should all get a good laugh and another paper record of them trying to abuse the elderly…. lol, elderly… okay, maybe on the outside…

I’ve looked at everything going on in the world, with my household, with our kids and theirs and with the rest that we know… an I think… my brain is finally, back to the here an now and not so focused on the past… an that is what I expected to happen, after I got my medical answers… explains why the blog is a bore too… busy doing other things or thinking of other things…

What I’m saying… my shoulders are imprinting on my ears… because like you… I’m concerned an worried an hoping, we don’t get the call about losing someone to covid19….

We are house hunting an we are watching the global warming and we are very aware of where we don’t want property… so we are either going to be up in the mountains, where there is more snow and less fire or we are going to be parked along side some body of water….. an since I don’t know if they are doing my surgery in stages or we are doing a full arch implant… my gut tells me, with 2 surgeons and 1 on standby… they are doing a full arch and that means?????

It means it’s all about the healing and how fast, my bone bonds to the implants… we could be off Hawaii by next fall… or spring of 2021…

We still have interest in our property, realtor lets us know, they still get inquiries… so selling, not going to be a problem… price is…..

AS for dreaming… even when I take a power nap, I get a memory… nothing of value towards what I’m looking for has appeared…

I just drew a blank… ready to withdraw back into my private world, where people can judge me to their hearts content and I get to watch the bigotry in action an smile… yep, I am back to being me, before the El Paso VA surgery from hell….

Our daughter is working many hats… ambition is great… but so is Covid19 and it cares not for ambition, it’s just looking for a new home…

We know the risks and we know these are her choices… we don’t always agree, but at least she keeps us informed, she at least really tries… can’t say that about the rest…

I’m not getting anything done here, to get the knot out of my shoulders…

Have a good one…

Adorable Spite… looking for a forever home…

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