Is there an Escape plan???

Ya know, when I started this goofy blog, I thought of Oprah and what she said about writing a diary daily… well for me, that made no sense, because I rarely forgot anything and it happened… I forgot lots of things and lots of moments in time…

It was gradual at first and it started out with nothing more than a slight dizzy feeling… and the body purge happened… hours on the throne and no one to hear me …. and I thought here I go again and I didn’t know why, but I knew it had to do with El Paso VA an my leg surgery and the two yahoos that were arguing before they wrenched my neck and herniated 3 disc… 5, 6, & 7… of my neck…

What happened next was the nightmare from hell… the surgery was Nov 2011… by the fall of 2013, I was literally bouncing off the walls in our house, because I was so dizzy… So I see the doctor at El Paso VA an tell him I am getting ready to drive my car to Washington state and I can’t do that dizzy…

No x-rays, no major exam… he gives me a med called steroids… well of course they worked, in fact I felt so good, we made the drive in 3 days… hubby pulling the 5th wheel and me driving our Kia, because we had 3 large dogs an 2 small ones… yea, we were crazy… try the whole winter in a 5th wheel with 5 dogs… talk about smoking a lot of pot….

By the time we got back from Washington, we knew something was wrong, I had a seizure like event on the drive back, 6 months later… scared us both… that was 2014….

By the time hubby flew back to be with dad, before he died… life was going upside down… because when he got off the plane, something was wrong… 9 months later, he had a triple by pass… I caught his heart failure after his ER visit…

So life didn’t slow down any, while I had a herniated neck… I had 2 homes, one a rental an one we were gutting… Hubby was recovering from major surgery and I was fighting a world of up and down… and getting absolutely no place with the VA….

By the time 2016 rolled around, we had finished the remodel, hubby recovered and we sold both our homes an moved to Hawaii, because this was were hubby wanted to end his days… (don’t think he knew how muggy it could get)…

Fast forward 4 years, 3 MRI’s & MRA and my neck was still herniated, until Jan of this year… somehow, someway, the breaking sound we heard in my body that scared the hell out of both of us, my neck popped back into place after 9 years plus of being herniated by the VA…

In between all that time, I’m dealing with Stenosis of my whole spine, I’m dealing with neuropathy externally and internally and I’m dealing with myelopathy… all of which I have had since the shaken baby syndrome that injured my spinal cord….

What has any of this got to do with anything…. ???

After months of exercising… and making myself stronger and more capable of dealing with all the pain….

A day like today comes along and everything hurts… the leg and the spine keep putting off heat and my head feels like it weighs 100 pounds…

And I don’t know what I did to trigger everything at once…

It’s moments like this that make me want to curl up in that ball and never move, as my head starts to heat up…

600MG of NSAIDs taken to help with the inflammation that seems to be in over drive… this is what I get to look forward too, for doing the right things for my body…

It turns on me….

Adorable Spite… who needs a sauna, my body is one…

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