When they flow….

I’m not much of a crier… I hate the headache that comes with it… the stuffy nose and I have enough issues breathing without adding to them and the fatigue that comes from a good cry… you just want to curl up and sleep the pain away… an there is the tears of joy…. those aren’t as bad… an more controllable….

Have you ever tried faking it??? I did… not my forte… I’ll leave that to the actors….

I am looking at my crying pattern…. and I can honestly say, I know of 2 times I bawled like a baby… at 18, when I remembered my childhood and someone was with me when it happened… it was a wild long cry… a puddle of humanity… the next time was at a funeral for someone I cared for an thought the family cared for me… not always right on evaluations… because family we are not…

I find emotions interesting… I was asked if I was detached from reality… when I went for counseling, when my memories started waking up… nice kid… but 30 mins, once a week, wasn’t going to get me to this point… so I gave up and here we are…

Love is an emotion… I care for people, but if they don’t imprint upon me, they are just someone I know and no emotions as the text would say, no different than saying hi to a neighbor…

The area of my brain that got the injury and the stroke… it changed that part of who I am… an there is no going back in time to fix it… hubby gets it…

I don’t value emotions… I value honesty, integrity, ethics, morals, the things that made America great… those don’t exist anymore because of the man made god they worship… humanity has no value, only the god, that allows them to do the worse and be forgiven….

Forgiving is an emotion… an a head fake that is all religion…

A crime is a crime… I don’t waste my time with forgiving… you do the crime, you have to do the time… be it in the courts or in your head…

Either way… you still pay… forgiveness is a head fake…

Owning your life…. is pure humanity…..

Birds singing, windows open, cool breeze… this is the Hawai’i I love….

Aloha…

Adorable Spite… watching earths tears…

It really isn’t hard to live a clean life, free of the racism and bigotry of the religious… it is liberating… just because you believe, doesn’t make it real...

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