Did you figure it out yet???

Sleep is so over rated… an I want about 12 straight hours right now… my neck is letting me know, I didn’t get any last night… almost feels like I have gone backwards on the insomnia… hmmm… maybe I should take 2 magnesium before bed, I only take 1 now… maybe that would help… give it a try tonight, maybe, I’m already ready to go back to bed…

So…. Have you figured it out yet… this question is for all the readers who have been with me for a long time and have read the early part of the blog… Have you figured it out yet??? What, you ask???

Cognitive issues… MRI & MRA ruled everything out, except the blood stain from a stroke and an area of the brain that looked odd… so, did you figure out what causes my cognitive problems???

The MRI’s show no specific brain damage… in other words, we know from the blood stain on the brain, I suffered a stroke… We know from the MRI’s that my spinal cord did suffer injury and I have full blown myelopathy and neuropathy through out my whole body…

Lets see if I can explain what causes the cognitive issues….

Because of the stroke, some of my lil grey cells got smothered… now if you get therapy after a stroke, memory loss is rare… because it’s usually short term that is impacted… well, not so fast kiddos… we now know I have permanent memory loss… I’m one of the rare ones for my injuries…

So what causes the fog and hiccup on my intelligence of crazyness???

The Stenosis and myelopathy and they always have since the shaken baby incident around 2 years old… add repeated injury to the spinal cord and herniated neck, which we counted out the other day and we think in the family home, my neck was probably always herniated…. an the last blow at 17, made sure of that… It was herniated when I entered the Air Force…

Inflammation of the spinal cord and the nerves, impacts the brains ability to function properly, add the heat it generates and the fog, when everything is shooting off at the same time… I struggle to maintain… amazing I worked from 1971 to 1998, before I had to give it up, the fog was too much to work through and do a job… as we have seen by my writing…

What this means…. No TBI show’s up on the MRI, just the stroke, but because of all the injuries to the body and spine, they consider me a TBI patient with multiple concussions and TBI’s… evidence didn’t have to be in the brain… my body proved, especially the spinal cord…

Life for me, will always be, watching what I do… I already have made changes to my activity level and when we move… we will hire guys to pack the container… I won’t be lifting heavy stuff ever again…

All this means, that for every asshole who said it was in my head and I was a hypochondriac…. showed their bigotry, because I probably said NO to sex… just that simple… that behavior goes on to this day… look at Ft. Hood…

The neurologist agrees, I have lived with myelopathy, peripheral neuropathy, broken bones and stenosis since childhood… I can account for the symptoms and the age they started… all because Don & Freda had to own me… not love me… such nice people these christians who hide behind a man made god… I got no use for cowards… nada, zip, zero…..

I’m still angry and I’m working my way through that, I don’t expect to quit being angry, just because I have all my answers…. I do expect the brain, to do it’s job and work out the missing pieces that are needed to close this chapter…

Lack of sleep and cranky aren’t going to make it happen….

So, the neuro is right… I am a lucky one… so many kids die at the hands of a family member… I did and fought back…

Now I intend to live my life an keep the door for ever closed to the woman who gave me life and took it… that chapter of my life is over and she is already dead to me…

Exercise…. UGH!@!!!!# I hate exercise, but I’m more afraid of dementia… so, exercise it is and I need to go do just that before we get hot….

So had you figured it out, why I had cognitive issues??? It’s all about, treating my body with respect, slow down and accept, I can’t beat this, but I sure the hell can learn to control it….

Adorable Spite…. Trumps circle of voodoo has no value, nor does he…

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