Which way did they go???

I get a kick out of the PT kids… she asked what the neurologist recommended and I said, it’s pretty much up to me… I figured it all out, all he did was confirm and eliminate…. he’s basically my backup and since I don’t have a license in medicine… I need the dude… just that simple…

I didn’t ask for medication and he didn’t offer, we had that discussion before…

What will be the rest of my life like??? Just like the first 66 years…

The only difference…. I remember…

I remember what I needed to remember, in order to help myself, because I knew my family wouldn’t and I knew that my mother would take her secrets to the grave… Don did… so too will Freda…

But I knew that long before El Paso VA operated on my leg and nearly killed me, by herniating my neck in 3 places and causing the nighmare I have lived for the last 9 years… Nov 2011, an that will never be forgotten, my mother in law, died the day after my surgery….

So, what can I expect… well, lots of exercise… I’ll probably buy a neck stretcher, but I want to wait, till my PT is over and we have a few hundred for me to spend on one, as I’ll be the only one using…

Adapting, to my lifestyle, will be every time I think of things I want to do… I have to ask the question, is it safe for me, an the answer will be no to a lot of things anymore…

Myelopathy just doesn’t impact my neck… I have it down my whole spine… so I got the triple threat on that disease… but it started right after the hairbrush beating… so shaken baby, all the way to the bank… an the repeated whiplash when Don beat me or Freda… I never stood a chance… throw in some Judo from Peggy, which she brags about… I really didn’t stand a chance…

So thank you Dr. Jacob, Capt. USAF, Vance AFB 1981 or so, have to look at the reprimand he wrote up on me for throwing instruments… well, we now know I’ve had neuropathy and myelopathy since I was at least a toddler… so thank you Capt… for that government document that shows, bigotry played big time at Vance AFB…

That was around the time I quit wearing make up, because I would stab myself in the eyes with the mascara that I never could control, let alone eye liner… an I bought my self that spray on makeup recently, it actually came out looking good, surprise to me… still no eyeliner and the eye lash’s get very little…

I wrote a long time back about it all being from my neck up… I was partially right… it’s actually my whole body, but the spinal cord is the real culprit…

I flexed my arm while PT was working it an you could see the lumps in my arm from the broken tissue and fractures that healed incorrectly… that left arm is a real pain in the ass, with trying to get it to work right…

Because I have so much soft tissue damage and nerve damage and skeletal damage… life will never be what it should have been…

An the woman reached out to me… just wow… oh an Peggy got slapped once…

Nope, life is going to be fun, it always is… just a little more restricted and confined and home… home will be with a view to die for… because my life may or may not be long… and I want to enjoy what I do have to look forward to, living some place I always wanted… on the beach…

Besides, if I do get dementia… what easier way to get lost in the world, than by the ocean….

Margie, living what christians put on anyone who fights their evil…

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