Happy Birthday…. well maybe…

My birthday came an went and I got exactly 2 well wish’s from people I know… hubby & girlfriend… and that was it, except for the normal BS from business’s you deal with and they know your DOB… got a couple of those notifications… but that was it… no card, no phone call, no email…. except from hubby and girlfriend…. and I’m the bad person????

Geez, talk about gut wrenching… naw… like Trump said, It Is What IT Is....

After a while, you sit back an watch those that profess to be family, be it kids or sibling’s or parents or anything… you forget them, you are douche bag… they forget you…. Oh well… an that is what you call being a “Christian”…. for all the words they say that they aren’t…

They act 100% like one… and that is a fact, you can bank on….

I have jewelry sitting in my box, for my granddaughters… one has gotten a piece and our daughter got one for her birthday last month…

And I can’t get a phone call or text, telling they are glad I was born….

Okie dokie… so that illusion has finally hit the pin and exploded… must of been a dull needle to take so long to explode into reality….

What this does for me…. allows me, to continue to withdraw even more and make it even harder to be reached…

When the family and friends cut me off over the last 3 years… I didn’t destroy the email address’s or delete their phone numbers or mailing address… but I know they did, how… because they reached out and I didn’t respond… they wanted back in the very door they closed, just one little problem…

When you closed that door, I removed the key and the only one with that key now, sure the hell isn’t you, now is it????

Have a great day, my birthday was quiet, hubby chose dinner and we just relaxed for the day an I accepted into my heart and soul the reality of my worth to other people and theirs to me…

2 way street, when you treat people this way… an that door is fast closing on the few left in my life… told hubby, our move, just seems to get further out of our reach and Hawai’i more like the home we hadn’t planned on… that’s life… I’m tired of moving and I have no desire to live near anyone who can’t treat me the way I treat them…

It is what it is, per Trumpie…

Maggi… I beat christians at their own game… cazillion points for me…

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