I’ve been fighting my whole life, you are just starting…

I looked at our frig an all you see on the front… print outs on how to do specific physical therapy exercises…

I told hubby, you are just starting to fix what you allowed to happen the last couple of decades… I’ve been fighting this my whole life…. an he know’s that is true…

I cannot remember not having back pain… at any age…

I cannot remember not having headaches and neck pain… at any age….

I cannot remember not having problems walking… at any age…

I cannot remember not having pain, at any age….

So for me… PT is to correct the damage that was done by christians so that I may have a more functional life… because the christians couldn’t own me…

I said NO an meant it… they disagreed with that answer an proceeded to kill me a couple of times… aren’t christians the nicest of people??? not human… people..

To be human, you have to have humanity and christians and muslims threw away humanity for a man made god… so… they just be people…

Last night was good sleep… no banger… in fact, when a banger drives by… I hit the reset button 3 times to let them know, we know who you are and we will set it off… reverse psychology, such a nice tool… an neighbors are still packing, going on 3 months of packing… meth house is getting real…but they were quiet…

I really thought I would get hit with nightmares, an what is actually happening is very interesting…

I’m dreaming, an lots of it is just memories from childhood, with no violence connected to it… so it shows we had quiet times in the house… but it was indicative of personality disorder of passive/aggressive… so mental health was already an issue, before dementia did it’s business to the parents…

It’s a new feeling, wake up an my shoulders aren’t imprinted on my ears…. that tension was so painful… an it lets me know that tension in my shoulders has an impact on that broken collar bone…

I’m learning… I may have read psychology and neurology till I turned blue, but regular medicine, I only read, if there is a need… like hubby, when I caught his heart failure… I did my research and then pushed for testing… so I don’t know anatomy as well as I could… it was more important to work on getting out of the chaos I was living… an it’s nice, it’s no longer around…

Brain fog will always be a part of my life, because of the stenosis… I’ve had those episodes my whole life and that is because of the spinal cord injury after shaken baby injury…. go figure… but Freda will tell you she likes kids… just not this one…

I’ve gotten the strap exercises down and the special ones for my neck and I’m learning to slow down and take my time and not be in a hurry… an the body is responding…

No charlie horses at night, no cramps or unexpected pain… just the pains of a body learning how it should be an not what christians made it….

The PT kids tell it will take time and I will have to keep at it… an I plan too…

Watching the news an it’s like the twilight zone… everyone keeps calling out the corruption that is going on, on all sides… but no one calls out the corruption of mans religion???? What are you afraid of… IT walking up to you??? I promise, IT in male form… will have balls, use your foot an send IT back to the space ship an let IT take it’s follower’s with IT….

Enough mumbling….

Adorable Spite… Looking for Aloha that never was…

Inspirational Leader has a blog… a young woman with a brain stem injury and her recovery is remarkable and testament to a woman’s desire to own her own existence…

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