It’s the end of the world as we know it….

Felt that way during the cold war… Since I was born, America has been at war… When I served active duty, we were in between wars… so I served one of the few times of peace… I miss that time…

Bangers have been by and I wait until they are upon our acre an set the alarm off and it stays blaring until I can’t hear the banger anymore… it’s kind of been fun, to just hit a button and not move any muscle… okay, I’m giggling… sigh, children think they are the only ones to do stupid… we all been there…

I’m accepting hubby wants the coast to live on, so, I’m looking at real estate along Washington state… going to cost… but beach here we come… I hope…

I’m also accepting that some relationships will never be again… life is like that, their choices made the decision for me…

So far I haven’t torn or broken anything doing the exercises… but my appetite picked up, for all the wrong stuff, so, Ice cream don’t last in our house… but I’m doing them and they help… they don’t stop the pain, no, that will always be a part of my life, just like the never ending fatigue… but as long as I get to wake up tomorrow… it’s doable…

I have doubts about the dental getting done… but, with all that has happened, with hurricane an pandemic… I’m just getting a little anxious…

I am sitting here listening to life go on around me and I’ve tried… I’ve tried to sit an write long story writes and the noise hits and it’s gone… the line of thought and it takes so much energy to reread what I wrote and see if I kept to the story line, because I like to wander… because that is what my brain does…

I long for quiet and as long as their are Ho O’nui on Hawai’i… peace won’t be what we have while we live in this house… and I really don’t want to buy another one here… Such a beautiful place, if only the people were….

2 years is what I expect, before we can leave… got a feeling those are going to be very long years… though hubby says time is flying by… not to me… it’s dragging by…

Sun is setting, the breeze outside my window, the air calming and the break of waves upon the cliffs, no other sounds but nature at it’s best… an the whir of a weed wacker breaks the spell….

Adorable Spite… looking for the Aloha…

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