It Feel’s Different….

Not a good night for sleep, when you have yahoo’s working on engines at 2 in the morning… alarm lights up the christmas tree and they shut it down for the night… according to the state proclamation… they have till the end of August and they should get moved out…should…

Finally fall asleep and dream… and that is what is different… the way the dreams are presenting memories to me….

I didn’t wake angry, irritated or mad… just woke up puzzled by the way I dreamed….

I told hubby, I can not remember ever NOT dreaming… and they weren’t dreams, they were memories… memories as young as toddler age… and the MRI’s and doctors confirm the injuries to my body and the government records show, none of those injuries happened in my adult life… wow on people selling their soul for a heaven that does not exist… I know, I faced death and came back…

The memories that are coming forward, may just integrate back into my memory system or they may present with a clearer picture of an event or beating or death… you chose, how you want to label what they did… but….

Slavery is a necessary evil and Immaculate conception is man’s term for rape, funny how white pasty men think this way an the women who suck up to them… just wow on lack of humanity….

It is changing, an I expected that, if the MRI was clean of major disease’s and nothing new was found that we didn’t already know about…

I really doubt the neurologist will order any more tests… we know my injuries through out my whole body and we know, that I am a very lucky one with all the head trauma I got at the hands of christians…. yea, if you call how I live lucky…

From what the PT kids tell me, some of what I live with can be reversed… an the weakness is something I will always live with, as my elbow goes numb from this position…

I may remember what I dreamed last night, or it might take many nights… All I know now, my body is relaxed, the brain looks for other things to occupy it and I’m having fun with the bangers…

So, it’s all good… We know the cops didn’t ticket the kids, but, if it continues, we will change the call to we want to talk to police to file a complaint… an all of a sudden, we become the hood to stay out of and that works for me and property values… so tiresome dealing with adults that act like 2 year olds…

Day started, got lots to do… So far, this has been a nice summer, with some excitement….

Adorable Spite… Trumps voodoo has no kung-fu…

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