Anyone else tired of the sky falling???

Get up later than usual… moving those sheds did put a buffer between us an the neighbors chickens… Hawai’i not what you would expect… if you watch Elvis movies… that isn’t Hawai’i, that’s hollywood…

Hubby out doing the walk… an me… I’m in a bad mood… an not by being woke up by bangers either…

Nope, dreams last night… and when they come at me this way, I know, in the next few days, something will open up that isn’t pleasant…

Honest when the PT kid asked if I had any good memories… I was stunned…

What part of recovering repressed memories is pleasant??? Of course I have good memories… but they aren’t the ones haunting my living existence… the bad ones are… that’s how neurology and psychology work… and since I’m not running from the memories… I’m going to embrace them…

I want this over too, ya know.???!!!

As for the bangers and bullies of Hawai’i, lets just say, they aren’t happy about having to turn it down… I wonder how they would feel If I parked in front of their home with a couple thousand watt system cranked playing some acid rock??? Kind of music my boys are into… both musicians… we do have a generator an truck… no problem setting the equipment up… or I could play Irish dance music… or native American dance music… I got a few genre’s in my cd collection…

Those alarms did accidentally go off early this morning after I got up…. ooooops…. Not!!!

For all the hype, Hawai’i is like any other state, with crime, murder, prostitution, drugs, hell the chief of police and his prosecuting wife, who is sitting in jail, biggest scandal ever… on Oahu… nope, Hawai’i is all hype and reality… we are ready to go back to the mainland… when the VA ever gets done with my dental implants… still waiting… started this nightmare in Nov 2009… we can see how far the VA has moved in taking care of this 100% disabled veteran… took 10 years to get major surgery…. no wonder our health care system sucks and thousands are dying… they are competent… the VA isn’t and that is a fact….

Exercise is working… but I’m back to that funny walk, where my hips don’t work right and I tend to stumble over my own two feet… so, I’m about back to my military days, as for physical shape goes, lose another 15 pounds and I’ll be there… not bad for a 66 year old woman… but I’ll never be able to do a plank on the ground by hand, it will always be elbows… those wrists were fractured at 5 years old in that beating and they have never fully supported my body since… at least now I know why… an honest, why did the woman reach out to me???? WHY??? That is a question that will never be answered… she is mentally ill… my mommy dearest…

I’ve played the keyboard, working at remembering the right hand, now working on remembering the chords for left hand… could use my daughter about now, she plays… but, it’s not too painful and I enjoy the challenge…

As for my other hobbies’… I gave away most of my stuff to habitat to sell… I can’t do clay and painting or other things that make me use my wrists… the pain is just to much… so the ball in the hand exercises are getting done, to counter that issue of scar tissue and pain… never ending… this will be never ending…

Ordered the last 3 inhalers… that makes 9 I have on hand and that should last me till next spring, which I hope to be in the middle of implants and done with smoking herb anyway and won’t need the inhaler, the VA is all screwed up and I can’t afford $450 a pop for a 30 day dosage… so breathing exercises and getting my heart rate up more frequently and work the breathing… I’m hoping I’ll do just fine, with no smoking of pot …. preparing… for the time and I’ve done this before, gone without the inhaler, so I know my body is capable… I just have to be working at it…

My other meds, I can afford through Walmart… funny, hubby is my dependent and we spend less than a $100 out of pocket yearly for his health care… I’m the veteran with full coverage and we are out, since last summer, over $3,000….. yep, that’s christians destroying our democracy…

but Sen Cotton say slavery was a necessary evil, wonder if he feels that way about my reproductive rights… it’s a necessary evil to tell me after rape, I have to have a kid, I don’t want… ??????

Yep, you can’t fix stupid and as long as women in America, black, brown, white, yellow… buy into the white pasty man’s god… women in America will suffer… really do wonder why they are so frigid… sex is meant to be enjoyed… but not according to christians or any other warped religion….

Enough mind wandering, got to go exercise before it gets hot….

Toodles….

Adorable Spite… watching Trumps voodoo go down the drain of insanity….

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