It’s slipping away….

Other than Douglas becoming a nice healthy tropical storm for our island, the other islands are still in the cross hares of a hurricane… missed the bullet again….

But I was looking at the radar and reading the weather statement and it dawned on me… it was all slipping away… the past…

When I stood in Freda’s kitchen in 2010… I had already gotten satisfaction out of Don, just by him not owning his life… and the way his death watch went down… he died with zero dignity…

But when Freda decided to play god and not give me life saving information… I was done… it was easy to close the door on the woman, because mother, she never was…. as for the siblings involvement in the cover-up and con??? They just became what they hated most… their parents…

I feel sorry for all of them… an anyone, who closed the door…. I won’t be opening it again… you don’t make it worth my time… and my time is important to me… why???

Well I have a book to write, a new home to find and a life to live… on my terms, not yours…

Like hubby said this morning… we won’t be any more out of reach in our next home than we are now, minus the pandemic… anyone could have come and anyone could have reached out… until you closed the door with bullying….

I watch what is happening in DC and it’s nothing more than bullying by the one with the most money and most insanity backing it…. not much of a choice, no matter how many times you go around the block… Biden is better with his mental illness of religion, than Trump is with his inability to be an adult an leader…. lesser of two evils…

I know his daughter won’t be thrilled, but I tried and I just don’t see a life for us back in the county… no, we grew and they didn’t and sometimes… you just got to let them grow and hope for the best… brainwashing via bible or face book… is still brain washing…. and truly peeps… it shows… it shows in your behavior, your mannerisms and your lifestyle… anyone can put on a act… but can you live it… like we do??? Doubtful….

No our influence is not wanted… but what we leave behind may and likely will be… and that is going to be one twisted WILL that I can promise… in spades, hearts, clubs, diamonds…… yada, yada, yawn….

The real reason for the write… I have to make myself stop and think of the past… it’s not front an center… it, uh… kind of went that a way…. as I look over my shoulder…

Nope, what happened… the last MRI… and it triggering a host of memories… much I had figured out, before El Paso VA nearly killed me… it all came back…

Yep, I do feel sorry for peeps… they will always be on the outside, looking in….

So… we are house hunting… watching the market, to see how and what goes tit’s up on the coastal prices…. so far, we have seen a change, from our hunting 6 months ago… so, our chances of a nice Gig Harbor or Ocean front… good possibility, but we are looking a large area…

Neurology after my birthday and probably my last appointment… he won’t have anything to add, except, confirm or put in for testing of myelopathy… but those symptoms have been around since I was 5 years old… so it took about 3 years for it to start after the shaken baby and spinal cord injury… as for psychology part of this… I passed that kid, decades ago… as hubby has seen first hand… yep, he’s a keeper and backs me up… he knows… lol, does he!!!…

Other than physical therapy the rest of my life and being aware and informed… I should have a better quality of life… but the PT kid pointed out, I already have spondoloysis in my spine and neck along with stenosis… so, I’m limited… by how much pain I can endure… can’t spell today either…

The book is going to either get started after neurology or we are doing more tests and I got a feeling… Book is getting worked on… oh, yea….

It’s weird… I find myself slipping back into the person who just sat back an watched, to some degree… in other words… hubby’s ears are getting more than just a rest… they are getting a lot of silence… the past has been put to rest…..

Tropical storm is what we expect and hope it stays that way…. still too early in the hurricane season, we got a few months to go…. oh joy….

Toodles….

Margie, watching what was, to be again in the book…. now a title….

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