I always said it was from the neck up… duh….

What I have been trying to write, since the kid worked on my neck yesterday….

The reason all this is going on, because I told the young doctor, what ever is happening, it’s from the shoulders up and I was right… again… as I want to nod off… yep, one of those…

The muscles all over my body have issues… most don’t communicate with the nerves that run through my body to the brain… and knowing I had nerve damage as early as 5 years old… I’m lucky I can wipe my ass…

That being said… what I’m dealing with, what hurts like a mother fucker… the muscles… in my shoulders in my neck… those seem to be the worse areas… the legs and arms are not running away from me yet, but the charlie horses have tried in one arm and one leg, so far today… so no more exercise today… do like PT told me, take the day off, after the exercises triggered those issues…

Anyway, the kid is stimulating things to go back to normal… and from what I have remembered… If I got health care, it wasn’t good health care… but I did get repeated abuse….

I feel disconnected, exhausted and that’s from fighting decades of habits that made injuries a lot worse… and if someone had owned their lives, I would have had this information decades ago and made decisions on my own well being, but play god is what christians do and they will play god, till they take that last breath, when they tell them selves… “Oh My” as the darkness and silence takes over and all that time living, wasted on a man made god…

Remember… I’ve seen and heard that darkness and silence… and a banger drives by… so ready to leave Hawaii…. an it’s Aloha….

It will be another day, before the fog clears… her rubbing those areas, stimulated things that haven’t had feeling for a long time, so, the next few weeks, she will have fun torturing me and asking about the blog….

But, it’s good to know, that, what is going on cognitively, is temporary and should in time subside and be less intrusion into my world, if I do what I should for my injured body…. just wow on how people can do this to a child… just wow… and say they know their god…

well my size 7 1/2 is willing and ready for that god to bow down to me…

Only gods on planet earth….Humans… they are the only ones capable of making them up and making money off them…

Adorable Spite… one long foggy day…

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