I Miss the Curve…..

I miss a lot of things and the other day, I got real low, but for all the wrong reasons and worked it out, like I should have to begin with…

Since the Japan beating… I used to sleep curled up, stretching out, meant cramps and pain…. fetal position is okay as a baby, but as you grow, you should be more relaxed, because you are secure and safe, out of the womb…

Well brain injury changes that… but so does herniating your neck…

Going through the trauma, the last blow to my head was 1971, Naha AFB, Okinawa, base housing… and there were clues my neck was herniated, but I was a teenager with one thought in mind, get the hell out of the house and stay clear of the dumb ass trying to kill me again…

I know the neck was herniated, because early in the blog I wrote about basic training and I went in the Air Force in 1977, an nearly flunked the obstacle course because of the weakness on my left side…

After the military and 2 major operations, the Air Force at Yokota thought all my issues were orthopedic, they were right, but, in old wounds healing… nothing new, no new broken or new fractures… just old stuff still healing a couple decades after the fact… does explain the weird bone scan results…

Well my neck is still herniated and I get sick on Japan and that fever or illness had impact on my spinal cord and we ended back in America on emergency reassignment and the doctors in 1987, didn’t have a clue….

Okay, so the hernia, when did it get dangerous????

I would have to say on the operating table at the El Paso VA in 2011, when I chewed the idiots who were putting me under, they yanked my neck wrong and because it was still herniated all these decades later, they cut off my airway and that explains purple fingers in post op…. ya know, that makes 3 lives I’ve used up… my bad on counting… I got 6 left….

From 2011 to now, I have under gone 3 surgeries… one in 2018 and he was so gentle, the gas passer, he barley moved my head at all, but I had warned him about possible TBI, yada, yada, yawn… all the stuff I suspected and he listened… Dec 2018 is the MRI that showed brain injury, surgery was Feb 2018… intuition… I listened to me…

When the doc did my eye surgery, the gas passer was aware of the brain injuries and stroke and was light on the knock out juice and I talked up a storm through both eyes… the doctors loved it… but…

When the surgeon grabbed my head to position it exactly like he wanted for the cataract surgery, I could feel it, I was so relaxed, duh… that he was able to manipulate my neck and I think he helped me… he didn’t fix the hernia, but his movement of my neck during those two procedures when I was so relaxed, made a difference…

Last surgery was Oct 2019…. now come 2020 Jan or Feb they did the MRI and found the hernia of 3 discs in my neck, to the left and that did explain how I was able to cut off my own airway, it was a dangerous hernia… and my exercise… the one thing I hate, the push to make the body respond… and it happened….

CRACK!!!!! and all 3 disc went back into place… we know this, because of PT last week, he examined me and did tests, that’s why we know I had a spinal cord injury…. and he manipulated my neck and it was back in alignment…. which is why it felt so wobbly to me, it hadn’t been in place since 1971….

I served in the Air Force for 5 1/2 years, gave birth to 2 boys… with a herniated neck that could have killed me at any time, because of one thing only…..

Christians beating up a child…..

Yep that article about southern baptist is dead on… white people down their think they are so special… oh special they are, they hide, rape, incest, murder, theft, cheating, lying….. in the name of their white mans god…..

Yep you can’t fix stupid…. anyhow… the neck thing…. sleep is so much better and when I do stretch at night, the body isn’t fighting it’s self, it’s actually relaxed… so, yea, sleep is getting better….

Pain will always wake me up or the lil white throne… but to know that was the nightmare I have lived since a grown christian man knocked a kid across the room…

I got zero respect if you decline the label human for your god, faith, beliefs or religions… to me…

you are just Bat Shit Crazy….. and I will treat you accordingly….

Margie, I Remember…

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