Military reputation, before life…..edited

Ask yourself, why haven’t I done the book???

Yesterday was a long, taxing day of remembering… It happens that way sometimes… years, if not decades of memories will flood in… and yesterday was the motherlode of memories and I have been trying to remember since last night, what I wanted to write about this morning…. and the memory finally cycled around the brain and came back to me… I hate those long side trips….. sigh……………………

1977, I enter the Air Force, unaware I had been beaten to death once, strangled to death once and repeatedly beaten or abused since birth… so, hey, what ya don’t know won’t hurt ya!~!~ Right????

Basic training was an eye opener, into the self centered mother and sister I have… that I wrote about… I left for basic 2 months after my son was born… look for the story, cruelty at it’s best…

Anyhow… go in the Air Force, Basic training you have to beat the obstacle course and I had an issue with my left side… my first clue… but I still graduated and we beat the boys on the course…

Get to Vance AFB and I got issues with my two front teeth…. by the time they were done with me… I had metal in my mouth, leeching right into my brain… they are called post and core… I kept my roots, but lost the teeth, so they put a “Metal” rod in both of those roots…. Rods’ made with nickle…. double sigh… low grade infection detected after that, chronic sinitis, chronic snot machince okay, not using spell check, no clue where they moved it (spell check) lol…

Okay, so, now by 1981… I have metal, right next to my sinus and during this time they fill fillings with metal and I complained of a taste and electrical discharge… by the time 1994 came around, the only metal in my mouth, the post in my front teeth and crowns, all metal fillings replace with composite… so I knew… before El Paso, I knew….

These aha moments of memory… damn, I wish they had happen before I let anyone do half dozen major surgeries…. all Freda had to do, tell me… instead, she wanted me to die during one of these procedures or events… explains her bizarre quesions when we lived in Mena…

So……. damn, double damn and I had a bad feeling…. and when I used to have bad feelings, I didn’t interpret them right, instead, fight or flight kicked in… the last few years, with remembering…. now I go for the gusto and knowledge…. so good to be back in my skin….

Implants are likely not viable for me and I accept that… the memory of discomfort from the metal… the fact, that since they removed all those crowns and bridges last year that failed… I haven’t had 1 single sinus infection… NOT ONE!!! I have only one crown left in my mouth and it’s mandible… but it gives me a zing once in a while with electrical charge…. geez… this memory thing is beyond the twilight zone…. and what I lost is even more weird…. personel life, naw, didn’t lose anything… but my medical history and injuries, poof… like Trump and his virus…… except my analogy has balls, Trumps is just fluff…. and death…..

Waiting on Oahu’s Dr. Kim to call me… tried to catch the dude on CNN & the hearing about Dental, but hubby opened his mouth at that time, so no clue, what they are going to allow….

I need the last 3 upper removed and proper fitting dentures that will stay in when I smile and zero metal!!!… yep, the ones they made me, I buy the glue in bulk…. typical VA death care….

Technology will move forward, but, if I’m allergic to denture material and metal… I have to chose the lesser of the two evils of allergies… and after over 40 years of hell, because the Air Force ignored my complaints as did the Veterans Administration… such good people these federal employees… your mom & dad, brother or sister… spouse…lots of angry emojis….

I doubt I will do implants… my sinus have not felt this good, since before I went active in 1977…. just wow…

I begged doctors, dentist, everyone… to the point I got angry and got told If I didn’t shut up I wouldn’t get care…. just wow on Trumpism in our health care… and I’m the one that figures it all out…. just wow…

Now as for the memory thing… yep it’s very high function, but photographic in my own unique way… which is why I upset the big wigs and those in charge now… I play back the scenario they set forth and when they can’t disprove their own fuck up… I finally get care…. Sad but true….

Health care is under the microscope right now… but I have a couple thousand pages of obtuse, arrogant, flippant, deliberate sabotage to my own health care… by those health care professionals… an you know what????

They put it in official government records and I have a copy… every rude, vulgar and unprofessional thing that could be done… was and they documented it themselves and I thought Trump was stupid…. geez….

As soon as we can sell, we are going home… we are geared to paying off debt and making it happen… the house will sell easy, not for as much as I would like… but enough…. next year will be a fun time in our house hold… until that moment in time, we have exterior and interior painting to do… lots of packing and preparing….

Mile walk done, memory back in the loop and nice day for Hawaii…

Aloha, thank you for reading my story….. if you can keep up… hubby struggles and has heard the stories for 26 years….

I remember… Margie… Sgt. USAF DAV

If they hadn’t pushed me out. I would have seen a medical board… The doctors at Sheppard AFB recommended it… but the base reputation was more important… Not me, not my child… The base…. VANCE AFB 1977 – 1983

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