PTSD is no longer winning…

The day has been stressful… dealing with loans, credit companies, realtors…

Trying to make sure I don’t leave us vulnerable and get us the best deal we can get….

I only lost my temper once in the last 24 hours with someone other than Mike… and it was more rudeness than losing temper… Mike, he got jumped on for about 45 seconds…

The pattern before I got my memories back would have been melt downs, over whelming feeling, unable to do what needs to be done in a timely manner, confusion and then anger over my behavior!!! Not any more…

I may not be getting the sleep I need, but I am not having the nightmares that keep me from that sleep…

So this is all about adjusting to the new normal on the chemical reaction in my brain…. I like it… it is still an adjustment after decades of behavior… but I knew it wouldn’t come down the pike fast and I knew I would hit road blocks and barriers along this journey… Still I like what is happening…

Owning it for me and acknowledging, I have zero control over anyone or anything… except… for myself… and that is enough work….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… and the angry men of Trumps culling…

Sgt. USAF DAV

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